i remember saying around 3 weeks ago that i'd get down to finally doing this quiz

guess that shows how much i procrastinate huh =D

haha got tagged by slau and tiankai. so here goes.

1) put your music player on shuffle
2) press forward for each question
3) use the song title as the answer for ur qsn, even if it doesnt make sense (i don't like the sound of this.)
4) tag 5 other people
5) bold the questions and give comments after your answer

how are you feeling today?
Unbelievable - Craig David

err i don't think thats true. unbelievably what!?

will you get far in life?
Hei Se You Mo - Jay Chou

i don't want to think about this one.

how do your friends see you?
I Offer My Life - Don Moen

i guess that means i'm er self-sacrificing? haha.

will you get married?
Faint - Linkin Park

my chances are faint? -_-

what is your best friend's theme song?
Don't Cha - The Pussycat Dolls

AHH!? does this mean he's either narcissitic or gay? AHHH

what is the story of your life?
Shut Up - Simple Plan

erm i've been too quiet? or its so bad i want others to shutup?

what was primary school like?
Lei Zui - Stefanie Sun

it wasn't anything like that at all!

how can you get ahead in life?
Since U Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson

i guess that means someone has to go....nooo....

what's the best things about your friends?
Wu Xin Shang Hai - Alex To

see they're so nice! they don't hurt others (y)

what is in stall for this weekend?
Revolution - F.I.R.

ehh is this good or bad? better be good hor.

what song describes you?
Life is a Rollercoaster - Ronan Keating

aha. so true. so many ups and downs.

to describe your grandparents?
Don't Treat Me Like A Fool - Blue

0_0

how is your life going?
Zhi Zhan Zhi Shang - Jay Chou

whoo second jay song. er does that mean that i'm being hurt now? or that i'm fighting for ppl! hahahaha.

how does the world see you?
Freak Out - Avril Lavigne

yeah i do freak out sometimes. for people who haven't seen it, it isn't pretty.

will you have a happy life?
Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day

i guess not.

what does your friend really think of you?
Words - Ronan Keating

i talk too much?

do people secretly lust after you?
Don't Wanna Think About You - Simple Plan

okayyy....

how can i make myself happy?
Dang Ni Gu Dan Ni Hui Xiang Qi Shui - Zhang Dong Liang

walao i hate this song. what's it still doing on my mp3!? anw the answer to the question is er that i should find companionship!

what should you do with your life?
When I'm With You - Simple Plan

WAHLAO HOW COME GOT SO MUCH SIMPLE PLAN! okay, so i should spend the rest of my life with you!

will you ever have children?
Journey - Corraine May

its gonna be a long journey?

OKAY ITS OVER. WAHLAO ITS MORE IRRITATING THEN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. AND WHY SO MUCH SIMPLE PLAN?

hahaha and tiankai: only 2 jay songs...:))

8:41 PM;
I made my mark

You Have Low Self Esteem 32% of the Time

Generally, you feel pretty darn great about who you are, even when you mess up or fail. Occasionally, a huge setback will make you question yourself, but you pick yourself up quickly.

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

i tend to change friends quickly? =.=

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

interesting.

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations. A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you. You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people. Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have high neuroticism. It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed. You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully. You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people. You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together. Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly. People crave your praise and complements.

i like the sea

and as you can see (sea whatever)

im bored. very bored.

and sleepy.

6:10 PM;
I made my mark

the past 2 days have been quite enlightening.

for one, i've realized that its almost always going to be awkward when i encounter my ex-teammates. i definitely don't like it, but i know that its unavoidable. if any of you are reading this, i hope that we can stay friends. i feel damn lousy about my medical condition, and i hate it that i had to leave also... c'mon, go win b'div next year. i'll be cheering.

for another, i've realized that seetow is a great great friend, and a great guy to talk to. we talked for almost 3 hours straight on msn on tuesday night, after i read his blog post. he seemed to be quite angry, so i just initiated a convo with him. it was worth it at the end of it all. i really didn't expect such a frank and honest convo, and i'm glad to see that things have worked out, and we've really emerged much better friends from it all. its been ages since i had such a refreshing convo with someone, where we'd all just say everything from the heart and not hide behind meaningless one liners. haha i started off listening to him rant, then ended up with me ranting. alot about stuff that i haven't told another soul before. like how i've really been feeling the last few months. dude, you rock man. i really feel like i can trust you. let's have more of these convos! it was fun

bio is held by a pcb. damnit i'm gonna do well for bio this sem, i swear. i'm gonna prove that even with such a teacher, i can overcome it. prove everyone wrong.

i've been bored, so i decided to do a quiz i saw on seetow's blog!

You Are An ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

5:46 PM;
I made my mark

HELLO EVERYBODY

I have a wonderful and massive headache!

dang.

im nodding off at the computer la.

and its only 845!!

HOI.

8:44 PM;
I made my mark

zzz today was worse than i thought it would be

which is saying alot.

first was chem cct, which i almost screwed up totally.

next was debates. i hope maas didn't screw my group over for definition or whatever. didn't go as well as i wanted it to.

then got back chinese cct, which SUCKED. 22.5/40. wtf la. zonghe got 6/20

omg la pls. i guess guess all wrong, merrill guess get 18/20

WALAO

life isnt fair.

maths got canceled, which is a bad thing, considering its a free 10 marks and could have brightened up my day. linear law la, how badly can i screw it up?

then had prac, my wrist strength improving gd job!

trying to do my expository essay now, preparing for tomorrow.

i want to slack.

8:44 PM;
I made my mark

zzz tmr going to be damn hiong.

got chem cct (BETTER BE OPEN BOOK), maths ta and maybe english debate.

wth.

siao la.

at least linear law is the most no-kick topic out there

while for chem im ggxxed.

english debate i chionging now.

walao. stupid weekend.

i hate mondays.

7:54 PM;
I made my mark

harlo, decided to finally set up a friendster account, after months of couldntbebotheredness. add me @ willem_castle@yahoo.com.sg or just tze ern :D

11:25 PM;
I made my mark

im in the most f***-ed up mood ive been in a really long time.

people who ive talked to know

all i can say is

stop.

5:51 PM;
I made my mark

wha, im blogging for the second time today.

not like many people actually come and read anyway

partly cos i've nothing to do other than sit and vegetate in front of the computer.

philo essay is a screwed up piece of *%*$&# la. i zunzun do until 500 words, then i find out that the new word limit is 800-1000 words.

PLS LAH

so i wasted my entire evening doing the essay. the ignominy of it. ah.

i've been liberated of my duties of finding ppl frm daji for the nov concert committee. whee. but not much time left to the concert, must buckup.

after blogsurfing awhile and reading some people's memories of obs (not just ri), i started thinking of my watch, and our obs camp.

during the camp itself, we were all groan, moan, why so cold, rain so much, etcetc. seriously it was quite miserable la.

BUT it still owned anw (=

MEMORIES OF OBS

most memorable: waking up at 4 am somewhere off the coast on pulau ubin, shivering in my damp pe, and huddling around the campfire as one big group, just enjoying the silence.

most irritating: peng singing almost non-stop throughout the camp the pokemon theme song.

most funny: ajay telling peng "you fall i laugh", then peng proceeding to jump on the spot and falling on his ass. causing the angmohs sitting there to laugh like siao oso. the start of the mooning and bighead nonsense.

most memorable (2): walking during land ex and singing songs together (totally random), and slau showing his pro singing skillz, and peng showing his lack thereof.

most memorable (3): kayaking in the rain, shouting instructions to each other, generally the whole sea ex

most surprising: that all of us got sunburns (and pretty severe ones) even though there was only one hour of sun during sea ex. 0.0

strongest man: DING, for singlehandedly rowing edmund in a 2man kayak, and leading the pack somemore -.-

rubbish talkers: peng, with bentay and seetow coming in close seconds

best leader: WEEHAO

most buaysong: that rg got to stay for so long in Camp One, while we rotted in camp two.

in random order la. anyway brought back fond memories :D obs rox.

10:59 PM;
I made my mark

im surprising myself that im still blogging

probably cos i realized that blogging is a great way to relieve

after a hectic day at school

just helps me sort out my thoughts

and make some sense of it all.

had two tests today, i hope i don't fail chinese.

thought today would be a slack day after the tests were over, but noooo, suddenly theres last minute news about philo essay thats due tomorrow. its only last minute cos PENG, our philo rep, has conveniently forgotten to remind us! again. and, he was still laughing as he said he forgot, in his trademark rising scream. its things like this that i really can't stand lah. take some responsibility for once man. i seriously need to take a video of peng when he does that. wait. it would probably corrupt youtube or sth. and i need a camera phone for that, for which an n-gage, unfortunately, does not fit the bill.

the n series looks so inviting and geek happy, don't you think? *heh

*hinthint*

oh yeah and the xbox360 is coming up with a new package, going for only *gasp* $350!

!!!

i've been successfully convinced to splurge my savings on this fabulous deal.

apparently the gaming shops are gonna be stocking it next month, and it comes with a 2gig harddrive. YESSSS

i couldn't care less about the wired controller, cos i just wanna play the games (Y)

so this BETTER BE TRUE.

PLSPLSpls.





listening to: ye de di qi zhang - jay chou (qiaoer's taste sux.)

reading: ultimate spider-man comic

5:56 PM;
I made my mark

yay maths cct is over. if im lucky i'll get 27/27, but i dun think my bonus will be correct. so i'll probably get either 25-26. still good larh. so so so so happy cos i think my maths is improving ^_^

sian today damn fun to play soccer la, play for 1 h during pe, then during recess and lunch kop astro some more. the sad thing is i couldnt play! >< stupid flu zzz.

haiz oso just lost a dota game. medu is a freaking tank. screw the spellshield lah. anyway i randomed razor, then end game i was the only lvl 25, had treads, skadi, aegis (with 2 charges), radiance, maelstrom and crystalys. ended the game with 5k gold oso. score erm 17-3 i think. then halfway hanni got damn pissed cos he couldnt farm his aghanim (shock) with ogre, cos he died quite alot and na was a coosturd mana burning him @ every opportunity. then the last 5 minutes damn hiong. i killed balanar and axe, then we were chionging their base. it was 3v3 at that time cos of lag outs. (i nvr kop items hor.) then we chiong their base, knock down base mid tower, all the way until left only ft and 1 tower. then game ended. i was like O_O then i realized that while we were chionging, their creeps killed our base -.-" hanni u nvr leave we would have won!

bb i go mug physics and read the stupid chinese book.

6:38 PM;
I made my mark

RE: SUNDAY'S POST

i have nothing to say. really.

turns out

peng actually did charge his camera battery before coming!

FULL some more!

no. 1: then why did he tell us that he only charged for 15 minutes?

i have no idea. maybe bigheaded people think differently from normal people.

no. 2 so WHY did his camera not register any battery.

simple. you probably guessed it already.

he forgot to put the battery (which by the way was in his bag all the time) into the camera

*smacks forehead*

and here, boys and girls, is lesson one on how to make yourself a complete and utter CHAMPION.

i dunno whether to laugh, cry, or whack peng. i'll whack peng anyway.

and today, he threw a chair and a large plastic/cardboard thing at people.

you know, i can take the lame jokes.

and boy are they LAME.

i can take the "i'm so pro, thanksthanks" attitude as well.

i can take his ALWAYS coming up to me saying 'a peice of cake!'

okay maybe i can't. anyway.

what really pisses me off is that he thinks that he's invulnerable.

that we're always wrong damnit.

that he doesn't know when to bloody STOP.

peng, if you're reading this

theres a LIMIT

to what you can do

before going too far.

i think you've crossed the line.

so for your sake, for our ENTIRE CLASS' sake.

THINK

before doing anything.

PLEASE!

damnit.

4:45 PM;
I made my mark

didn't go to school today cos i have the flu....and i cant stand having to blow my nose every five minutes. zzz

for the first time, i didn't slack at home! (shock, awe, horror)

i actually MUGGED

which may come as a bigBIG surprise

(considering that i'm a slacker)

i spent 6+ hours on maths

so proud of myself =D

and 1 hour on bio

where i spent half the time cursing *youknowwho* for not teaching

seriously, he can't teach for nuts.

not that he has any, considering they've all been whacked off by tennis racquets!

lalala 3P lameness.

*DISCLAIMER: ANY SIMILARITIES TO ANY PERSON LIVING OR DECEASED IS ENTIRELY UNINTENTIONAL, AND SHOULD NOT BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY. LALALA.*

9:16 PM;
I made my mark

what a stupid, retarded, and utterly pointless day it has been.

was supposed to meet at j8 at 1 to go take videos for our chinese web project.

i thought it was 12, so i waited for 1 and a half hours. but nevermind. that's not why im angry.

when we met up (seetow merrill peng and me) i asked who had the video camera.

peng said 'ya i got. but only 15 minutes'

at that point i was like -.- but nevermind, 15 minutes would still be okay.

so we took bus 52 to thomson plaza, and went to look for food.

we went to this place called 'the roti prata place' (how innovative)

and we ate (suprise) roti prata, and took video.

at least,

we tried to take video

and peng turned on his camera

and watched it turn itself off again

and said

'no batt.'

me and merrill exploded in front of him. 'WHAT!?'

then he said (in that matter-of-fact tone)

'i told you i only charge for like 15 minutes before coming what'

WTF!?

right. how responsible is that, really.

'i forgot what!' what a dumb excuse.

CHAMPION, PENG.

so i have wasted 4 hours of my life today. thanks peng. really. sincerely.

4:06 PM;
I made my mark

yay today was a slack day. :D im such a slacker.

but it rained so much, so cannot play soccer during lunch. sec2 interclass anyways.

been tagged by tiankai and slau to do the music shuffle quiz haha. i go do tmr, cos my dad wants me off the com soon....

5th game in a row my score more than positive 10! =P

10:41 PM;
I made my mark

on the com now after coming back from co and dinner. damn msn is down.

and so i feel bored

and i did this dumb survey

Your EQ is 127

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

8:23 PM;
I made my mark

@klax: thought abt what you said for a bit, and i find myself agreeing to a certain point. we all have our own tangible ways of dealing with zhihao's death, so perhaps we shouldn't judge. ah well. i admit that it does sound a little fake, seeing that this is the first new act by the new ripb exco. i'll give it time, reserve my opinion abit for the time being.

nth much to say besides this, other than i got into rico exco as section leader. XD thats 2 ex-ruggers being percussion sectional leader in a row. its that a good thing? haha.

1:08 PM;
I made my mark

went to his funeral just now. not really in any mood to blog about it now.

**EDIT: I reserve opinion on this venture for the time being.**

Dear Batchmates of 2007 and fellow Rafflesians,

We are very shaken and very sad at Zhi Hao's sudden departure. Most of you would probably be feeling the same way too.While we are all grieving at the loss of a wonderful friend and batchmate and being overwhelmed by feelings such as the brevity of life, unfairness, futility, sorrow, loss and pain, we would like to propose that we recall the wonderful memories of our times with Zhi Hao - in school, in class, in project groups, in CCAs, in org comms , or when we were just hanging around with him in and outside school. Let us capture all these in a book of tributes in loving memory of Yew Zhi Hao. It will be a book of memories, tributes, photos and more, celebrating the life of Zhi Hao. If you wish to contribute to this book, please follow the following guidelines:

- Use an A4 size paper (any texture and colour)

- Draw, print, handwrite, cut, paste (let your creative juices flow)

- Use proper language, ensure that it is a fitting tribute and be sensitive to the feelings of Zhi Hao's family

- Please contribute as many photos of Zhi Hao as possible

We will start collecting and compiling all contributions into a book when school reopens. Paul Tern is presently away on an overseas CIP journey, so in the meantime, please contact Jonathan Lim at jonathanlimes@gmail.com should you need clarifications. Zhi Hao's parents may have lost a beloved son, but let us keep memories of Zhi Hao alive for them through this book. May this book be a source of comfort and strength for them .

Let us do our best for a dear friend,

Paul Tern and Jonathan Lim

2:07 PM;
I made my mark

stoned for quite a while this morning. played some games but wasn't in any mood to enjoy it. finished erp (one of the few bright sparks of my day) . left the house at 230 to go to sch for rehearsal and blocking prac. spent around an hour there, did blocking for around half the script. seetow and chee didn't go, and so we wasted half an hour waiting for them. i won't bother to comment.

decided to go for the wake at about 445. realized i was wearing a bright yellow bayley shirt and went to j8 with merrill to buy a suitable black shirt. got cheated by a sign that said $10 (min) 2 pieces. we thought that it meant $10 for 2 pieces, but in the end it was $10 each. merrill (you rock dude) kindly bought one shirt along with me, so that i didn't have to pay so much. =))

took taxi with merrill, brian and his st hilda's friend gabriel (also known as CuttingCircles on eurobattle.net). we laughed and joked throughout the ride, but i felt uneasy and more than a little guilty about laughing before such a solemn event. it is right to do it? would he have wanted us to continue to live our lives the way before? i would like to think so, but i'm really confused.

the wake was solemn, as expected. went in to pay my last respects to him. i felt like no words could do justice to the person he was, someone i respected. i don't like seeing dead bodies. i would prefer my memory to remain untarnished, to remember him for the vibrance and vivacity.

i was really affected when i saw wang. he was really grief stricken, and i didn't know what i could do. nothing i could say or do would help, but these things pass. keep the faith, and keep his memory alive. do justice to him. keep strong, wang. my thoughts are with you as well...

during the wake an incident on monday night occurred to me, one that really filled me with horror. on msn that night, an rg s2 softballer (theng's junior) suddenly came and asked me for his phone number, as she was his mentorship groupmate. i didn't know about the incident then, so i went to add wang to the convo. when she asked, i could sort of see wang's hesitation. back then i didn't know what it was, then wang asked 'why do you need it?'. i was still clueless at this point about what happened earlier in the day. so she explained etcetc and wang gave her the number, but said nothing more. at the time i thought nothing of this hesitancy, the abrupt answers. now i see what an ignorant and unfeeling idiot i have been >< all i can say is that i'm veryveryvery sorry, and i hope for your forgiveness...i understand if its hard, and i can wait.

am feeling very lousy now. and also feeling very tired from grappling with my new printer, who simply refuses to set-up quietly. bah. does disillusionment feel like this?

9:05 PM;
I made my mark

i still find it bloody hard to believe, but the truth stares me in the face (literally). i guess somehow i just can't let go, to consign him to a mere memory. i hate goodbyes.




going for rehearsal at LT1 from 330-5 for lit play. one and a half hours is really short la. ><
in the meantime, i will have to force myself to do erp, but i'll probably end up doing it tonight, so.

i need to get rid of this listlessness, this dearth of energy in me. i can't stand being like this. i want to control my life; why does it seem like its controlling me?

8:31 AM;
I made my mark

yes i know that i said the next time i'm posting i would have changed my blogskin, but 1) i cant be bothered to find a new skin and 2) i reallyreally needed to post this, if only to clear my mind.

**EDIT: yes i have changed my skin now. finally got too sick of it**

it's so difficult to believe, much less comprehend death. yet death is what stares us all in the face, and is the only certainty in life. yet i simply cannot, refuse to believe that someone i know, albeit briefly can go just like that. but it has happened. i'm still struggling with my emotions. this tempest within me cannot be articulated by mere words, but here i am trying my best, because its a therapy of sorts.

in the past, i have read about people experiencing regret for the things that they didn't do, didn't say to a loved one before they pass away. i haven't really experienced it until now. i regret that i didn't get to know him better, regret the potential good times that i wasted, regret the might-have-beens.

really, its the suddenness that truly strikes me. he looked to be perfectly healthy. then suddenly he is forcefully taken away from us, by a heart infection that no one really knew was coming. is it fair? to be cut down in the prime of your life? of course it isn't, but that doesn't make it any easier to bear.

looking back at my own life, what would i have done differently, knowing that my time on earth was drawing to a close? certainly i would stop wasting away the hours doing nothing on my computer. and that makes me think. have i been giving my all to God recently? sadly, the answer is no. 'live each day as if it was your last'. if i adhered to this motto, how much of my life would i really change?

being so affected by the presence of death, i wonder how i might cope if a close family member passed away? its scary, because it is so real. would i break down? i really don't know.

so my friend, rest in peace. i might not have known you beyond a fleeting acquaintance and a friendly 'hi' as we pass by each other in school, but that doesn't mean you won't be missed. your legacy lives on in us, and you'll never be forgotten, for all that you brought to our batch, our school, and our lives.

6:28 PM;
I made my mark