i miss vbc. sigh.

i miss the vibrancy of the whole camp.

i miss the people.

i miss the worships.

i miss the fun all of us had, even in preparation for the camp and cleaning up after.

i miss the cold jokes.

i miss just sitting down together and talking.

i miss playing dead in rol.

i miss the spiritual fire that burns so brightly in camp.


what i would give to just go back 1 week in time, to last tuesday. haha. i can say i honestly didn't expect to have so much fun. this may very well have been the best experience of my whole year. i think it certainly was the most worthwhile. i needed something to drag me out from my slump, the spiritual rut i was in. i needed to be dragged away from the many hours i wasted away on the computer doing absolutely nothing worthwhile. i needed to get my perspective back.

I lost my way
yet You never lost faith in me
i was the lost sheep
obstinately remaining aloof
but You the Loving Shepherd;
You waited for me, patiently
never leaving nor forsaking me
despite all i've done.
i don't deserve Your love
yet You gave it all for me.
mold me in Your likeness Lord
help me love You with all my heart, soul and mind.
help me walk with You for the rest of my days
help me keep the faith
help me stay strong in You
now and forevermore
Amen.

12:10 AM;
I made my mark