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2006-12-26T21:28:00.000+08:00

Have decided to move blog.

It's been a great year of 2006, but I'd like to start the new year fresh, different from the way I was at the start of this year. If a fresh start is possible, I'd really like to have a real go at it.

So here at is -

indiscriminate-mumblings.blogspot.com

I think a few of you might know this was where I posted my autobiography for the english grade. Haha but I like the name. Though it may be a torture to type. Lol.

Cya there :)

2006-12-26T20:05:00.000+08:00

Ahh well it's back to early mornings again. Plrrsshh.

Have to wake up at 6 the next 2 mornings if I wanna make it on time for camp. And from what I hear it's gonna be just lectures. O_O

At least I'm gonna go watch Curse of the Golden Flower tmr after it. Haha.

And apparently SYC camp echo is on friday night 7pm O_O Why isn't it after church on Sun! Chances are I'm going, but it's quite a commute from school to BMC. ><

On another note, I don't understand how someone can live at tanah merah mrt and not know where BMC is o.O

lol.

2006-12-26T12:23:00.000+08:00

I'm increasingly bemused by my computer.

Although at the moment, not that I'm complaining.

After receiving Age of Empires III for a christmas gift (YESYESYES! xD) I set about this morning trying to install it. Some of you probably know that my computer is screwed up, seeing that I can't install things on it without going into safe mode. Well, this morning, I found that it couldn't even install in safe mode, and normal mode was being its usual infuriating self. So I started tinkering around with settings, removing drivers, changing configurations. And not to mention reverting to Last Good Configuration more than 5 times after I horribly screwed my InstallShield up. o.O

After I gave up, and just left the installation (which hanged again) for 10 minutes, suddenly the installation started -_-

Then I installed it, only to find it hang while installing DirectX drivers. -_-

So I had to manually install the drivers by copy pasting, then tikamtikam get it to work. At the moment the game only works from the C:\Programs folder. Well, at least it works. But it sucks alot of power out of my graphic card, so I can only run textures on Medium/High unless I want to continue seeing green blobs flash across my screen constantly. Lousy pixel shaders.

And even more weirdly enough, when I booted up my computer I tried installing Windows Live yet AGAIN. And true enough it didn't work. I wasn't very surprised. What got me more surprised was I tried again, without changing ANY settings, and this time it finally installed o.O

Again, not that I'm complaining.

My computer is weird. At least I've got AOE3 and Windows Live installed. Hahaa.

2006-12-25T22:07:00.000+08:00

Heh. This is the first time I've been able to actually just sit down at the keyboard, relax, and just think since coming back from Shanghai. (Surprise, surprise)

It's been a refreshing 1 week plus, stolen away from reality. The past few days in particular have been rather unreal, where for once, I can just concentrate on the moment, live for the moment. My biggest concerns have been what christmas presents to get for people. Superficial? Maybe.

But reality has this annoying way of creeping back and biting you on the ass. And so now I find myself being forcefully thrown back into reality, back to school again. The last week of the holidays already? Just how did it pass so quickly?

Time flies while you're having fun.

I've had a wonderful month, and perhaps one of great significance for the rest of my life. VBC, SYC, etc. You know what I want for Christmas? That this moment will never end, that it'll stay December '06. Hah, wishful thinking indeed. No harm in wishing though, is there? Is there?

One thing that struck with me, can't remember who said it though:

The Israelites lived in the past, for its in the past that they see the grace of God in their lives, and that gives them the strength and conviction to walk into the future. I want to live like that. Not to live in the past, but to draw strength from it for the new day ahead. :)

I know my posts don't really make alot of sense, or even sound coherent or in any order, but its just random stuff that spouts out when I'm just letting my fingers run on the keyboard. Bear with me. Haha.

K enough of this. Bye.

2006-12-25T20:02:00.000+08:00

Nope no post about Shanghai just yet, I haven't transferred to photos over to this computer. It's still sitting pretty on my dad's notebook. It seems increasingly unlikely that I'll ever get to do it this week, considering that after tomorrow I'm off to PSL camp, then CCA resumes. I look with increasing anticipation towards saturday; gah, it feels like the hols are over already. It's like a hangover feeling.

Still can't believe I went for two services today. Haha. And a big THANK YOU goes out to all you people who've given me presents :))

Joanna: the shirt's damn nice! xP

Btw, I realized that my Shanghai trip was really cheap (all things considered). Look at it this way:

Return trip on SIA from Shanghai to Singapore - $1200 per pax

Tour to Shanghai (inc. of trip there and back on SIA, food, accomodation) - $1000 per pax

See! xD

2006-12-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

I'm baaaacccckkkk....

In time to greet the 150 new messages in my inbox. Work stares me in the face. Reality bites hard.

Shall post about my trip when I've got more free time. As it is, I'm already really sleepy and more than a bit irritated by the quantity of my inbox. But before I forget:

MERRY CHRISTMAS PPL! :)

Goodnight.

2006-12-14T17:26:00.000+08:00

Kevin Mark Lee you owe me that lunch. Hahaha..

Because of this bugger you see here I wasted 3 hours of my life this morning going for a meeting in school that was canceled. Fantastic start to my day indeed. Yesterday was the wet shoes fiasco, now this. I suspect that tomorrow morning may hold more of the same. I drip with anticipation. Hah.

Whoops haven't finished packing my carry bag. Nevermind. Can't be bothered.

2006-12-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

At Chee's behest, I shall post. Although about what, I honestly have no idea.

Right.

Tinkering with my blogging style again. I think it looks better like this. Don't you?

Just came back from the trip briefing. I still have no idea why I had to go for it. Nothing imperative that I needed to know (or even wanted to know). Turns out there's another 15-year old guy going for the trip, but have no idea who he is; only saw his parents there. Nevermind, for this trip I shall adopt a 'take things as they come' policy. Although honestly there's no other way to spend a holiday; I mean, who spends their holidays worrying? ...

...Well. Here we go again.

I really don't know sometimes. If you get angry at me right, if there's a valid reason I have absolutely no complaints. But why is it that recently for no reason at all you've barked right into my face? I got quite mad last night, but managed to control myself. Now, I really don't know how to react already. Gahh.

Perhaps why I react the way I do is because I still lack these two qualities: Humility and Meekness. I find it extremely difficult to turn the other cheek when I know or feel I've been wronged. And I simply can't find it within myself to just deny my own pride. Sigh. Lord, help me. I don't like being like this. I need these obstacles to be removed. I need breakthrough. I need breakthrough.

When will it come? Hurry, hurry.

2006-12-13T18:02:00.000+08:00

2 days until shanghai..hope its an enjoyable trip.

heading to a briefing for the trip in a bit. don't know why i have to show up though.

i had the most retarded start to the day: i woke up intending to go run at 745. got everything ready, heading out alr; opened the door, then realized my only pair of shoes is wet, cos i washed it last night. -.-

shhh don't need to tell me. i know i'm damn jack. -_-"

2006-12-12T23:28:00.000+08:00

okay yingjie, have unlinked you..will respect your decision for privacy..

in one of those contemplative moods, although about what i have no idea. just thinking in general i guess. introspective maybe. it's been a rather introspective week come to think of it. but, i think these 2 weeks have been the most worthwhile of my whole year. i have absolutely no regrets about the way i've spent the last 2 weeks.

i don't want to remain the immature guy i was. i don't want to succumb to temptation any longer. i don't want to live a life thinking i can make it on my own. indeed; all i need is You, God. and into Your hands, i commit again.

And the world will know Your greatness
You are my God
Jesus I will
Shout Your praise!

2006-12-12T10:36:00.000+08:00

i'm back from syc!

i think it was a massive time of revival for EVERYONE. it was altar calls every night, and the response was seriously amazing. -nods- i think God really spoke to me during this camp, and i made a promise to God (that for now will remain secret). oh and every night was just CHARGED. so many amazing things happened; for me the biggest highlight was the praying for tongues :) haha i think its such a wonderful gift la, and i'm really really really glad it happened. there was a lot of rededication, making Jesus our FIRST LOVE, breaking ourselves before God; just so amazing. may we be a generation of IMPACT for Christ! i believe :) supercharged for God indeed.

the third night was just so SO AMAZING. the worship session was just so ENERGETIC :) haha running to the back of ROL and back, forming a train and just jumping around uninhibited. and i'll become, even more UNDIGNIFIED than this :) haha and the altar call was just amazing. when pastor joyce called us to the altar, she told us RUN not walk. RUN to God! yah it was really affecting, and we were all annointed with oil, with the mark of the cross. i'd like to think that it will be something that will be seared into me forever, that i'd NEVER forget this night of revival. and the praying for TONGUES. out of the 31 who stepped forward to be prayed for for the gift of tongues, by the end of the session 25 of us received it :) yeah and the only word that can really describe speaking in tongues is EDIFYING. even though i have no idea what i was speaking it really was edifying for the spirit. how alive the word of God still is today :) oh and the 2 hour session extended to 4. WHOA and it didn't even feel like it.

and a BIG THANK YOU goes out to pastor joyce! i think she really delved deep into the heart of God and BMC, cause i could see that her words and message and prayers really resonated deep within every single one of us. the power of God is really at work! :)

haha i found the games fun too! although i came back FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE OBS sunburnt o.O in my WHOLE LIFE i can count the number of times i've been sunburnt on the fingers of one hand.

was abit o.O to be the youngest in camp (at age 15), but the people in my group were really nice! my grp had jansen jolencia justin alex charmaine ivan rachel (is that it? can't rmb) haha and we had a lot of fun. team boulders ftw! the highlight of our grp had to be the lunch out together, went to thai xpress and had a great lunch (soft shell crab xD) and laughing and nonsensing about. heh.

Praise God!

and we'll dance dance dance in the freedom we know

2006-12-07T19:33:00.000+08:00

i think i'm addicted to blogging.

even though my posts might be less than interesting to read, nvm i'm doing it for my own benefit (:

heh.

i honestly don't know what to expect from syc. partly cos the age group is up till 28? and i bet theres a lot of ppl i dun even know -.- YAMers mostly..nevermind, i'll take it as it comes..

but the one thing that i expect is that God will make this camp a memorable and fulfilling one. i know i won't regret going. :)

seeyou guys on monday!

2006-12-07T18:34:00.000+08:00

tell u sth. i don't like reading my blog, cos i barely sound coherent in any of my posts -.-

have been out since 1030, going to hanlin's hse. we ate lunch, cursed at the rain, and went to lan. lanned until 4 then i went home. sigh stupit piano lesson.

i wonder what my calling is. i want to serve in ministry, but just where do i belong...maybe God will reveal it to me during SYC. especially with the camp theme as 'Our purpose, in Unity'.

ohyes i'm going for SYC! i finally decided last night. toobad quite a few ppl aren't going. at least ryan is, since he was 50-50 like me since a few weeks ago.

shoutout to all u guys at bangkok: hope u're having fun! takecare :)

2006-12-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

whoa the Lord really is the Provider. right after yesterday's awful night where i totally went nuts, comes today :)

i had an absolutely magnificent day :) haha i cant stop putting smileys.

give u guys a brief runthrough of my day:

730 - wakeup
740 - head to reservoir
750 - start running
810 - finish my 4.5km run and head home
840 - grab breakfast and bathe
850 - head to church
9 to 11 - give out flyers to estate around church
11 to 1130 - stone in church while waiting for pastorjoel and bernie to come back with our drinks xD
1145-1215 - cycle to tampines stadium from tanahmerah to return adriel's bike for amandabennett
1220-1240 - walk home
1240-140 - stone in front of com and eat lunch
140 to 2 - head to tamp interchange to meet up with jake a.bennet and adriel
2 plus to 3 plus - go to changi chalet
3 plus to 415 - stone in one of the chalet rooms watching amanda go wild over my ngage
415 to 6 - walk around at beach watching jake christen a ?crayfishthingy? joe and his subsequent baptism. and dissection of stingray.
6 to 630 - stone again
630 to 930 - walked around, talked and had dinner with amanda jie and audrey

subsequently, i went home.

HAHA amanda bennett is damn funny! 'eh i'm very girl okay! i got barbie dolls at home leh!'
and adriel's deadpan reply 'then why u cycle bike and play boyish ngage games -.- '
and she calls herself 'pebbles' HAHA. kk im damn bad lol.

aiya the whole day was more fun than it sounds. considering since jyc last year i haven't even talked to jake and adriel -.-

i guess all my insecurities and idiosyncracies of yesterday have been answered :)

God is great!

2006-12-05T23:56:00.000+08:00

don't ask me why i'm posting so many in one day.

i think writing/typing things down really help me to deal with my thoughts.

hah, i've been thinking alot tonight. about a whole lot of stuff. hah i guess u could tell that from my previous post huh.

i was wondering, just how many true friends do i have? not just people i'm comfortable with, but people that i know that i can do just about anything with, and at the end of it all they'll still accept me for who i am, weaknesses, idiosyncracies and all.

im scared to even answer this question, cos maybe i don't wanna know what the answer is. that i may continue living in ignorance, after all, isnt ignorance bliss?

2006-12-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

EDIT: the post here looked to me like the crazed rantings of a madman, and i'm feeling loads better today, so hence the EDIT. :))

2006-12-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

for the record, the 'heh' i put on my tagboard was referring merrill's scream. it just looked...wrong. -.-

haha happyhappy. in 3 days i've got 1 pair of shoes, 1 new bag, and 1 raid of the bargain bin: POP:SOT (!!!!)

haha whoa i was shocked when at robinson's sale at expo i saw this group of games 'buy one get one free'. THEN I SAW PRINCE OF PERSIA: SANDS OF TIME. so i got the game for only 10 freaking bucks. :)) HAHA super worth it pls!

whee im going to run tmr at 7, bathe, then head to church to give out some evangelistic flyers around the area. first time i'm ever doing this type of stuff, and i'm uh quite scared la. i mean for me its difficult enough talking to people that i'm acquaintances with, how am i going to talk to people i'm complete strangers with!

but i guess its in situations like this i'll just hafta submit myself before God and let Him work. its all for His glory, so i have faith in Him. not by my strength but Yours. :)

2006-12-05T10:52:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling sore all over

and i haven't felt this damn good in ages

ever since i was forced to quit rugby.

haha i shall find solace in running and gyming.

(=

2006-12-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

i miss vbc. sigh.

i miss the vibrancy of the whole camp.

i miss the people.

i miss the worships.

i miss the fun all of us had, even in preparation for the camp and cleaning up after.

i miss the cold jokes.

i miss just sitting down together and talking.

i miss playing dead in rol.

i miss the spiritual fire that burns so brightly in camp.

what i would give to just go back 1 week in time, to last tuesday. haha. i can say i honestly didn't expect to have so much fun. this may very well have been the best experience of my whole year. i think it certainly was the most worthwhile. i needed something to drag me out from my slump, the spiritual rut i was in. i needed to be dragged away from the many hours i wasted away on the computer doing absolutely nothing worthwhile. i needed to get my perspective back.

I lost my way
yet You never lost faith in me
i was the lost sheep
obstinately remaining aloof
but You the Loving Shepherd;
You waited for me, patiently
never leaving nor forsaking me
despite all i've done.
i don't deserve Your love
yet You gave it all for me.
mold me in Your likeness Lord
help me love You with all my heart, soul and mind.
help me walk with You for the rest of my days
help me keep the faith
help me stay strong in You
now and forevermore
Amen.

2006-12-04T19:19:00.000+08:00

still feeling the runner's high...

just came back from running around bedok reservoir for the first time since moving over in p5 *guilty*

haha 4.5 km is the longest i've run in more than half a year..last time i ran that much was during training in the beginning of the year. but my timing was passable only, arnd 23 minutes for 4.5 k. i'm damn unfit pls. must go run some more..but it seriously feels damn good after running, although i'm totally breathless. i need to push myself more, i was running less than my 2.4 pace.

random note: gravel is nice to the knees. or maybe it was the squats that i did that i'm told are good for the knee. ohwell whatever works! my knees feel alot better than before.

ok i shall make a promise to myself: by this time next year i will have self-learned how to play the drumset, and play it decently well..judging by my session today i've got a long way to go lol. and the drumensemble pieces that ngoh is teaching us is mad -.0 crossing arms everywhere grr. i need to practice my rolling more too waha. when thomas yinkwan patrick and i were rolling i was slightly off, couldnt keep up lol.

so i shall make a list of what i have made resolutions to do today!

play drumset well this time next year
roll faster and steadier asap
run more
gym more
play less com (lol u may be thinking wth, but i really haven't felt like playing the com these few days)
DO MY QUIET TIME EVERYDAY

lists are good. since they're up here that means i'm compelled to do them right! u ppl remind me of this if i start to slack off xD

2006-12-03T19:45:00.000+08:00

haha church today was fun. we redid our uh 'sit dead' impression. hah. audrey jo mark lianne joshgoh and i were just stoning in rol and talking nonsense. hehe youtiao ftw man!

no detailed post yet cos at the moment i still have to go and bathe. and ohyes i got new streetsoccer shoes yay! my very first pair. i shall go find pics later. (=

Who Am I
Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus: I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours. I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am.
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus: I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus: I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
You told me who I am.
I am yours. I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cuz I am yours.
I am yours.

(= my favourite song (y)

2006-12-02T20:26:00.000+08:00

COFFEE is the only reason i have survived the past 4 days.

xD

just came back from vbc'06 (=

i don't think that my time in vbc can really be done justice in words. i came into the camp with not much expectations, but God really shattered my preconceptions. i forgot just how fun it was to just sit and play with the kids, be totally uninhibited during worship sessions, as well as bonding together.

(well for the uninitiated vbc is vacationbiblecamp for the p2-p6 kids. as an fler (frontliner which means sec1 onwards) i went there as a helper..)

despite not being a camper itself, i guess even though the activities are generally directed towards the little kids it was really enjoyable nonetheless. especially activities like the water bomb one haha. after getting wet from waist down i just thought what the heck la just get totally drenched =D which i did.

yeah and i got to know alot of ppl better! like jansen, joshua, deb ng and amanda bennett (is tt how u spell it?) who previously i didn't talk to that much. oh and i realize that ryan and i are really alike (= i know u probably won't read this but man i'm glad u're my friend.

i guess why camps are so effective is because they provide an enclosed environment, sealed off from the rest of the world, giving the peace needed to really focus on God. I always feel refreshed, recharged and revived after a camp. its really revival, baby. i needed it alot more than i knew. words really can't do justice to the way i'm feeling now. i'm alive again.

maybe i should have scrapped my other commitments and gone for jyc. i guess i'm kinda regretting it now. sigh. nvm whats over is over. i did what i thought was right at the time, and i hafta live with the decision anyway. (=

OH AND JOANNA U CAME :D haha great to see u after such a long time! the centre of our extended family finally came back!

hoho maybe i'll post abit more about specific stuff in the camp while its still fresh in my mind. post tmr! and sadly my phone still remains camera-less so no photos T_T maybe i can scrounge up some from other ppl lols.

heh ohyes and jie i'll be awake tmr, dun worry. uh but u don't read this right lol. if u do gimme a shout k!

ok damn i just realized theres no coffee at home >_<

early night i guess. church tmr again! =)

2006-11-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

in abit of an introspective mood. no, not emo, just introspective.

you know, i'm wondering: will it really be impossible? is it really that impossible? i believe that miracles can happen. but maybe i'm just trying to convince myself of something that'll never work out. or then again maybe i'm just too scared. haha. i don't want to live with regrets.

hahaha i guess the rest of this post (that i've already typed out btw and its rather long but just had to delete it >_<) i'll keep to myself. privatised entries mebbes.

okay introspective mood over :)

looking forward to the rest of the week! vbc prayer walk tmr, and vbc from wed to sat :D i hope it'll be enjoyable and fulfilling! and i realized i haven't packed >_< gahh.

k la naruto fillers aren't THAT bad. substandard, but uh watchable la. WHEN WILL THE ANIME CATCH UP WITH THE MANGA AGAIN ZZZ. i want to see 15 year old naruto!

2006-11-27T11:37:00.000+08:00

recommendation!

a walk to remember by nicholas sparks (=

super sad but really really good book. read it!

feeling lazy. should i just grab lunch from the coffeeshop downstairs or tamp mall to eat? >_<

considering that the cleaner's nonstop chattering (phone call) for half an hour while cleaning my room, i'm feeling damn sianded.

ohwells.

2006-11-26T16:54:00.000+08:00

carrying tables and chairs, going gym; had a good workout today yup.

finally managed to negotiate my sleeping hours. booya. at least i'm not restricted to 12 anymore (y)

got a walk to remember from amanda haha. i hope its as good as she says it is xD

bye i'm going to bathe.

2006-11-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

now that the stupid 100th post is over, i can finally resume my blogging career (if you can call it that)

just came back from happy feet HAHA. its a nice show, quite funny. little mumble is damn cute! xD

tappity-tappity-oomph!

and although my fm certainly can't compare to seetow's, lets give it up for the signing of podolski! HAHA yea man i think podolski owns in the game. been trying to sign him for 3 seasons lo, and i finally get him in the fourth. xD

its the lu-lu-lukas song innit?

2006-11-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

THIS IS MY 100th POST

:/

k now its over. cope with my idiosyncracies plx.

2006-11-20T20:56:00.000+08:00

whaaa 99th post now. zomg.

u know i really really really REALLY REALLY want to post something now. but for reasons that i shall keep to myself i cannot. sigh. thats precisely what i hate about blogs. the fact that it is oh-so public. abit of a contradiction yes i know since u'll probably be saying "A BLOG IS MEANT FOR PPL TO READ ONE WHAT!!!" yar but i guess thats why a private blog may seem so appealing. although in this case private or not it doesn't really make much of a difference anyway.

i know i don't make sense. oh well.

...

HAHA SEETOW HAS JUST BEEN TOLD TO CHANGE HIS UNDERWEAR BY FM! LOL!
the addictedness level rating really is damn funny HEE. "time to change your underwear" indeed. xDxD
although i'll probably reach there in abt a day's time SOOoooo...better not to laugh too much today. hahaha.

sigh psgm meeting so early in the morning. >_<
no 1+ waking up time lo....

2006-11-20T01:01:00.000+08:00

the prospect of a private blog actually sounds rather appealing. BUT i guess it would be quite troublesome (in more ways than one) so...

looks like im stuck here.

gahh i hate naruto filler episodes. they really suck. cant believe there are 70 more episodes of filler wth.

soooo im back to fming -.-

what a life! xD

i guess i'd better go sleep now. i don't think its really healthy to sleep at 2+ and wake up at 1+ everyday. haha. right seetow? xD

goodnight

2006-11-19T16:25:00.000+08:00

uh i guess blogs are increasingly used as adverts nowadays so...

http://community.livejournal.com/lacafetiere if you want to know more..

2006-11-18T21:10:00.000+08:00

can't believe i actually shed tears over a show.

i guess that's why i like watching naruto so much, and why i've suddenly continued my naruto watching marathon yesterday.

the show isn't just about the fights, the angst, the laughs.

its about the people, the seemingly stereotypical but very very real characters. people that you and i can relate to. its so real.

episode 114 - the (apparent) death of chouji.

a character that everyone liked to laugh about, a character that even the producers made fun of. every single one of his techniques were laughable - double size, human cannonball, etc. from the prior 113 episodes, he seemed like just a fringe character, one thats the prerequisite fatty for every show.

how wrong i was.

that very same feeling i felt towards him at the start, the absurdity of the character was very quickly gone when i saw just how isolated he was, and the great friendship that he had with shikamaru. many characters are like that, where they overcome their isolation and loneliness and emerge stronger. its a very real thing nowadays, especially in our teenage years. many people may seem okay on the outside, but may be hurting deep.

i guess its a testament of how good the show is, that when even fringe characters take centre stage you feel for them. that when even fringe characters die (or seemingly die) you can weep. that a show can handle deaths, yet emerge greater and a better show from it.

how human it is, huh. the hokage's death, which i watched during ct period was equally affecting. both gave their lives for their village, their friends. sacrifices. of course chouji didnt die in the end, but anyway surprisingly it doesn't cheapen the way i feel.

this sort of cements what i feel about God at the moment. i guess it has never seemed so real, the sacrifice of a life for a friend. Jesus's sacrifice for me. i've never really appreciated the true significance of that one act. maybe it may all have been words before, but now i see how it really is the ultimate sacrifice.

He gave His life for me.
now i shall live for Him.

2006-11-18T01:08:00.000+08:00

lol after much thought, actually the chalet was not bad la. although not exactly ideal, it was still a welcome break from the monotony of life now. (even if its to the monotony of xbox, but whatever)

2 hour dota games are quite deadly. im feeling super drained and tired now lol. score of 26-12, but no beyond, only godlike zzz. bloodseeker is easy. btw naga at late game is just unkillable.

went to buy my books for next year today. the guy at the cashier gave me 9 bucks extra change, but i very nicely returned him the amount, even waiting for 10 minutes for them to count whether i really got back extra moolah. (a)

psgm meeting for tmr cancelled, so my day tmr is free again! gymin in the morn yo. then back to slackin at home again. (y)

2006-11-16T21:59:00.000+08:00

im baaacckk......

chalet was uh okay la. we didn't really do much activities. which is really dumb. majority of the time was spent vegetating in the room and playing the xbox. grr. next year must have a PROPER chalet! no xbox! (slau don't complain)

in total about 15 ppl appeared, although there were only about 9 on both nights. and everyone went to sleep damn early walao. stupid wep.

highlights:

1)kevin lim and his uber-randomness. as well as all his retarded jokes like "eh cake how was the refrigeration last night? not too cold right?" and "lets get a cakecutter! ...whoops." cos after that i stare at him like o.O and he runs away LOL.

2)random soccer at pasirris park using jorel's deflated minibasketball! haha KEVIN LIM IS T3H UBER PWNAGE! heehee xD we played for almost 2 hours and i've got abrasions on my feet where my sandal straps are supposed to be.

3)xbox where slau got pwned @ doa XD
k la not so bad. haha but i still beat him a few times with AYANE woohoo! XDXDXD
and i owned at crash nitro xDD 1st in all races HAHA

haha and my we8 now not bad la...improved (= but I HAVE NO MO4QI4 WITH CARVIN. his uber randomness is too much for me. T_T

4) going out with paul and seetow to buy a small ball, and whacking it everywhere on the way back. i hit a fan >_< after watching it wobble we decided to zao. lol. but damn funny la we were going damn random, giving some funny commentary while we whacked the ball in one of the empty spaces near aranda. XDD

5) going nuts in the room with paul's beach ball! ...that burst cos of us. HAHA. we were smashing (i.e. volleyball smashes) the ball at the wall and at slau (and his food) (y) then we played keepitup, which was oso quite fun lol. then seetow burst the ball. walao seetow! haha!

6) k wait this isnt a highlight. WAITING 3 FRICKIN HOURS for someone 18 and above the come T_T
cos even though paul and his mum said can i wasnt allowed to checkin WALAO. stupidstupidstupid.

was feeling quite emo-ish just now, for unstated reasons, but i'm feeling better after i remembered all that.

2006-11-13T20:34:00.000+08:00

tsk.

all you ppl ah.

anyway i'm going for class chalet tmr.

whoever's going at the start tell me now! meet at mrt at 230.

k i shall come back with an account of what happened.

as well as a 3 page letter i owe someone. >_<

lol k bye.

2006-11-12T21:29:00.000+08:00

(veh wrong meh -_- think sick only la u! tsk)

am abit high now cos i was owning in the past 2 dota games xD
am beyonded and lvl 10 refresher using warlock and not soloing somemore (y)

overslept for church today >_< woke up at 930 instead of 730. so rushed off to church, arrived promptly when lessons ended. yayness.

then stoned in church until 1230, ate lunch, went for the briefing.

at the start of the briefing (which was for vbc - vacation bible camp - btw) the speaker said he'd like to keep it brief, as its called a BRIEF-ing. okay such a joke might be bad but it can be forgiven. but the sad thing was that it wasnt brief, at all. we ended after a 2 3/4 hour presentation, 45 minutes longer than it shd have been. ppl were zaoing from 315 onwards HAHA.

rushed home, then collected the paperwork for the chalet from paul. 3P-ers drop by and let me know if u'll be there on tues for checkin!

2006-11-12T00:32:00.000+08:00

theres something to be said about how utterly hilarious footballmanager07 can be xD

first was nani taking a corner in the 89th minute, with timewasting set to full. sometimes players will just wait for the ball to be passed to them for the deadball. nani stoned at the corner flag, watching the ball go past him for i think about 6 times, letting it roll on. LOL. time wasting at its finest baby. (although i cant stand it in real games but fm doesn't count)

second was the arsenal game, in the second leg of my champions league quarters second leg. in the 8th minute, rio ferdinand knocked henry out with a clattering tackle. denilson, who undoubtedly has to be the star of the show, got furious and pushed carrick (?). if he pushed ferdinand i can understand but why carrick? so he got a yellow card. 10 seconds later (which is evidenced by the running of the clock and no commentary takes place) denilson pushes carrick AGAIN. which means, a red xD HAHA I ALMOST FELL OFF MY CHAIR PLS. this takes the hat (Y)

2006-11-11T22:34:00.000+08:00

klax: lol i've lost all motivation for prac alr. -_-
jo: haha you're welcome (= yeah okay we settle after your o's (Y)
val: don't ask me -.- i hate set pieces.

-_- just came back from flu jab.

i don't like jabs.

and thats all for today's inspiring post and awesome message.

(btw i edited the recent post. i forgot some stuff)

2006-11-11T00:24:00.000+08:00

wow long day today.

woke up early with the great plan of leaving the house at 915 -

EH WTH MY COM JUST GOT INFECTED BY SOMETHING FROM BLOGGER

WTHWTH

fortunately prevx1 saved the day WHOO.

--> (advertising. if anyone sends me a paycheck i won't mind =))

no but really some funny virus program just ran la. scared the heck outta me.

my com die, i gg.

ANYWAY

i planned to leave the house at 915, grab breakfast and head to school.

which meant i had to reach the busstop at 930.

leaving the house at 915, i headed off to the coffeeshop near my house.

i told the drinks stall uncle 'halfboiled eggs liang ge.'

he came with kopi 2 minutes later T_T

then after that i told him that i wanted HALFBOILEDEGGS.

he came with some quite soon after, but then told me must wait 7 MINUTES.

eh 7 minutes is alot of time okay. since i had to rush off to school.

so i waited those seven minutes, quickly broke and ate the eggs, pouring much too much pepper and getting my hands full of yolk at the same time, rushed off.
reached the busstop at like 940.

i thought 'shit die lo. late.'

then i waited for another 20 minutes cos that freaking 59 just wouldnt come.

late le -.-

but i dunno how, i reached ri at 1031 xD

OYA I REGRETTED DRINKING THAT KOPI. i couldnt sleep at ALL on the bus, even tho i was freaking tired. feels like utter crap.

collected apr from avt. that stupid 3 people rule is retarded.

then went around to stone with tiankai until 1245, met jerome at traffic junction, and somehow we ended up helping teachers move stuff from old staff room to senior block. for our valiant efforts we got 1 timeout each. whoa. we should get cip hours! xD

then for some reason when we arrived at colombarium both of them decided not to eat, despite the prospect of a free lunch. lols boliao -.-

SYF PIECES SUCK. OH MAN. THEY SERIOUSLY ARE RUBBISH. LONG AND THAT STUPIDSTUPIDRETARDED SETPIECE. it says alot when ur score is only 3/4 page.

OHMAN SIX MONTHS OF THIS. SOMEONE KIDNAP ME.

(lol val does this sound familiar.)

GAHH.

2006-11-09T21:13:00.000+08:00

yucks every game with spectre i lose. T_T its a curse i tell you.

must wake up early tmr again GRR. whole day sucked away..

go sch collect APR at 10, dunno do what until 12 go rjco rm..1 go colombarium eat celebratory lunch (o.o) 2-5 dazhu...walao rico still so hardcoreded. nvm if get gold with honours nxt yr its worth it man.

who wants to go eat breakfast tmr!!

2006-11-09T15:36:00.000+08:00

woke up at 11 today. T_T

whenever that happens, i feel like at least half the day is gone. i realize that the time when i'm most productive is actually in the morning.

case in point: i've been fming for the past 4 hours. (Y)

piano lesson soon..and i haven't done my homework.

again.

2006-11-08T16:24:00.000+08:00

blogging before i take my mandatory afternoon nap.

woke up at 630 today cos had to go make my passport. all i did there was to show my face and wait for 1 hour. tadaa.

can't wait for class chalet next week! cos i have nothing to do in the meantime..T_T

2006-11-07T14:33:00.000+08:00

haha yay my tagboards alive again!

i feel so loved HAHA XD

i think i might wanna change my blog template soon lols. it seems abit too emo. heh. not like i've got any lack of time now...

HAHA THE CONCERT PWNED

i was like expecting 40-50% turnout only cos the ticket sales weren't too hot but man, we almost had a full house pls! =))

800 tickets sold, 714 went. EITHER WAY WE SOLD OUT ALL OUR TICKETS WAHAHA.

fortunately there weren't really screwups, and PATRICK PERCUSSION DIDN'T HAVE THE 10 SCREWUPS WE PREDICTED! XD actually right i think we had less than 5 throughout!

only thing was that some sections were abit too 'gan' (i.e. erhu n mebbe chuigan)

other than that we rocked! headmaster was impressed WITH PERCUSSION LEH! WOOTS. he said we looked like we were enjoying ourselves HAHA.

feedback was that the concert was really great! HEH.

forgive all the caps i'm feeling quite high again now. XD

all of you who didn't go: YOU MISSED OUT XD

(tho i confess that the ensemble pieces i.e. those without percussion (HAHA) were quite boring)

(although dizi by shida pwned)

haha for an alternative viewpoint u can go to http://iamnermal.tk or yingjie's blog (which i dunno the url to)

2006-11-05T23:02:00.000+08:00

ARRGGH

walao seriously la hanni we're damn freaking jack.

T_T

haha finally sat down to have a good talk after church for the first time in damn long, cos i always had to leave with my parents. found out a lot of ehh stuff. i feel so privileged haha.

in case u didn't notice i've reverted back to my haphazard style of blogging. easier, and i personally think it looks nicer 8)

tmr concert!

!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really really really really really REALLY hope i don't screw up.

check that.

i really really really really really REALLY hope NOBODY screws up.

=)

must pray vehvehvehveh hard tonight. :/

2006-11-04T23:07:00.000+08:00

OI it's been four days without tags already! (apparently soon to be five). WHATS THIS. TAG PLS PPL!

XD

Haha I'm very demanding (Y)

Reading on past entries, I realize that I've been posting with abit of haphazardness regarding my grammar T_T

So to try it out, let's have one post that actually

1) Has capital letters at the start of every sentence!
2) Has a capitalized 'i' (HAHA THIS IS LIKE DAMN EGO LAH)
3) Has apostrophes!

Whoa amazing!

Spent 12 hours out today. Left home at 730 for prac, left prac at 1210, chionged to taonan for the fair, went to Safra Tampines, came home at 730. How exact.

And before I forget, OMG. I'M NEVER EATING AT JACK'S PLACE AGAIN. WE SAW A BLOODY COCKROACH CRAWL ACROSS OUR TABLE. And the service was quite lousy.

WE SAW A BLOODY COCKROACH CRAWL ACROSS OUR TABLE

THIS BIG
<---------------------->

WALAO I LOST ALL APPETITE
AND WE JUST SAT DOWN SOMEMORE

We were contemplating whether to complain and hopefully get ourselves a free meal (Y)

But after Xiong remarked that Singaporeans whole day only know how to complain, we decided to be less problematic. We're non-conformists like that.

We being Stanley, Hanlin, Xiong and I because SOME PEOPLE I NAME NO NAMES--

TANZHIHAO
WANGZHEMIN
LEEZIYAO

--left us just as the lady at crystal jade walked off to bring us to our table for 7. CHAMPIONS LA PLS.

Back to Jack's Place. It was all hanni's idea. "Seriously it makes you damn full one!"

Okay I was full after the meal (I wasn't very hungry to begin with) but everything else was like -.-

After Jack's Place we went to get a b'day prezzie then walked back to the taonan 100th anniversary fair. Which was super busy, but nothing looked interesting.

And only the guys went. Wth the only girl that went was Valerie! (as far as i know) ALL DON'T JIANG YI QI DE! (hanni said that LiAnn and Claire were supposed to come larh)

Zzz we should have just gone out first.

After doing nothing at the fair, we went to search for hanni's second brilliant idea of the day, which is a (supposedly) damn cheap bowling alley Katong Mall. In the end, we walked ONE BIG ROUND and we still didn't find it. Presuming it exists. For the record, Katong has a hell lot of ulu malls.

Then we walked to Zhemin's house, and got dumped by him there -.- We didn't even get to go in -.-

After going to Bedok Interchange, Xiong dumped us there -.-

SO Stanley Hanlin and I went to Safra Tampines ourselves -.-

Presumably to bowl, after finding the rates at 3.80 per hour and all the pool tables taken up (WALAO I WANTED TO PLAY POOL T_T WORLD CHAMPIONSHIPS HAHA) we went to LAN -.-

And that sums up quite a tiring and rather pointless day -.-

To preserve ?unifomity? i shall end my last sentence with a -.-

Good night. -.-

(Siandedness does this to people) -.-

2006-11-03T19:30:00.000+08:00

HAHA i won the quadruple with man u yesterday!

beating inter 5-0 in the semis for champions league and liverpool 5-0 and arsenal 6-0 in the epl (Y)

beat liverpool in the fa cup final with gary neville sent off (in the opening 20 minutes) with an injury time winner from carrick (freekick at edge of box) for a 2-1 win!

then beat acmilan in the champions league final with louis saha sent off (after 60 min) and a 108th minute winner from ronaldo to finish 2-1 winners!

in both games, i only scored after going down to 10 men. randomness.

and carvin is an idiot -.- he kop all the cheap and pro players! zzz.

2006-11-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

LAN fm is quite irritating. ESPECIALLY WHEN CERTAIN PEOPLE KEEP ON SPAMMING CONTINUE AND I HAVE NO TIME TO TRANSFER PPL. (ahem who is it ah)

okok i shall post about our interclass final!

at first on tues (er yesterday) we thought it would be after school, but in the end it was postponed till recess. that was bad because i was still very tired, tired until i slept in class past the bell and into morning flag raising T_T NO ONE WOKE ME UP LARH!

but anw we went slightly late cos we got back our lit papers. (which i got 21/25 for btw xD i think its quite taiko)

that meant that 3R was already there waiting for us. like home court advantage alr la! somemore tom and merrill were almost late T_T

when the game started, we were quite on fire la for the first time since the first game. we were raining shots upon their goal. they had one off the line clearance and we hit the post three times T_T damn suay lor pls.

then controversy. from a corner (or throwin? whatever) the ball floated into the area. tom grabbed it out of midair, but with his arms around dillon's head. so when he pulled it back, it smashed into dillon's specs and the ball dropped. from the ensuing scuffle in the box, mikeybin whacked the ball into the open goal.

fortunately paul was there to rescue us with a brilliant save (ahem reflex). of course it was a handball, and penalty. at the time i didn't think it, but looking back i wonder why paul wasn't red carded. lol. so mikey took the penalty, and blasted it slightly wide of the top left corner, to our relief. if they scored we knew that we would confirm be out alr. so imagine our reaction when mr chng made them retake the penalty, cos not everyone was behind the line T_T damn scary lor. then hanni went to take the penalty, but blasted it too high. we were safe again!

playing on, we had one more off the line clearance before time ran out and it went to penalties.

gwar and slau took the first two penalties, and both scored! so we were 2-0 up and quite confident abt winning it. then we missed the next 2 and they scored 3. -.-

so at 3-2, it was to be the final kick of the game if we missed (cos we took second). paul stepped up to take the penalty. damn pressure la pls. i was damn freaking scared, and i confess that i didnt dare watch it LOL. i only looked up to see the shot fly into the top left hand corner. DAMN NICE SHOT LAH PLS. under pressure somemore. haha paul on fire! during lunch hanni told me that he thought they confirm win le. lol.

then nico tan had to take the next penalty to his chagrin and anger. tom made a gd save from the shot, and if we scored the next penalty, we were champions!

so chee took the last penalty, having already won us the game against 3D with another winning penalty. running up, i was damn shocked when he hit it with the outside of his foot! i was like WTH LAH CHEE DON'T BE FUNNY then the banana shot flew past nicotan for the goal! WOOTS it was a good shot haha. but now he damn ego. oi chee.

haha so we won and then taupoked chee and peng (who rushed into the centre of the field, presumably to be taupoked -.-). after the game i felt quite happy about my performance. haha before the game i thought their aerial threat to be too tough to handle, but i didnt miss or screw up any headers! haha and i marked mikeybin out of the game w00ts. our defence was damn fluid! whenever anyone ran up to attack we automatically covered for the gaps. impenetrable defence baby. lol then tom remarked after the game that he didnt have to make a single save! ^_^

haha so now we're interclass champions for the year 2006! xD

having taikoed our way through, i think we were bloody lucky! it really could have gone either way for many games. must give thanks to God haha cos without Him i think we'd have bowed out long ago. nvm next year we shall win it with ownage attacking football (Y)

zzz slept the most of today. stayed at home cos i was sick, and missed the tech rehearsal zzzzz. nvm i go find out what happened later. and i finalized my re grp for next year alr! slau paul and (i think) hiok. yay good group. no more slackers next year UNLIKE SOME PEOPLE XD

2006-10-31T19:32:00.000+08:00

in accordance with my promise in an earlier post, for post #80 i shall give a stimulating recount of our interclass soccer '07. (Y)

last monday we started our interclass, although we weren't in a good mood. why? because we had to wait for 3 hours for our game, then receive news that it would be postponed until after school. zzz.

our first match was against 3E. we currently (k since its over) - we HOLD the record for fastest goal scored in the tournament. brief recount of incident:

0s - kickoff
2s - fake by gareth
3s - shot by gareth (on the halfway line)
6s - goal (Y): a swerving shot that eluded the keeper's grasp at the last second!

we went totally wild la! xD

within the next 1 minute:

0s - kickoff
30+s - open play, out for throw in
40+s - throw in taken (by me hah) and ding scores with a thumping headed goal!

we owned the rest of the game, but it couldn't compare to the first 2 minutes man. pure pwnage.

so first score: 3P 2-0 3E

next game was against 3F...we only managed a measly draw with them. they just set up shot in defence la. they had two off the line clearances. wth. so..

3P 0-0 3F

last game, a (supposed to be) exciting game between two of the favourites! 3M vs 3P.

ding hit the post in the first half. second half we conceded a bloody stupid goal.

marvin - throws

ball flies across the pitch

i'm tussling with qiaoer for the ball

i jump for the header with qiaoer but both of us barely miss it

tom sees it and decides to let it in, thinking it was a throw and therefore not counted.

and it was given as a goal T_T

so we lost. 3M 1-0 3P

zzzzzzz. i felt like shit after the game. but it turned out to be a blessing in disguise la. (Y)

cos we lost, we went through the group on goal difference. we went thru by a +2 goal difference on four points. damn pathetic la. but it gave us an easier game against 3D in place of 3C had we topped the group.

against 3D we played quite rubbishly again. in the end it went to a penalty shootout, but we almost got knocked out here. at one point in a defensive mixup i let the attacker sneak behind me and almost pop in a goal, hitting the post after tom was beaten. felt like shit again la. my mistake almost caused us to be knocked out of interclass.

so it went to penalties. long story short, we won. but not after a hell lot of controversy over an (un)blown whistle that caused us to retake a penalty (and miss). bah.

then we had the semi-final against 3T, which was erm a quite comfortable game where we played slightly better, and where gareth scored his second goal of the tournament. and our last in open play. which makes our overall goal difference +2. 3 for, 1 against. T_T quite pathetic. zz.

as 3R won their clash with 3C, we had setup a mouthwatering final with 3R.

as my fingers start to get tired of typing so much, i shall post later tonight. or maybe tmr. toodles.

2006-10-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAHA SHIT MAN JOREL IS DAMN FUNNY

chee and jorel were fighting to see who could get first on my contact list.

don't ask me why.

and jorel came up with this gem.

- *Çhanky ; 12equiem said:
how he put space before the name one...
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. said:
nub.
-` [ Çhanky ] ~* ; 12equiem says:
u noe?
-` [ Çhanky ] ~* ; 12equiem says:
TEACH TEACH!!!
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
i don't reply to stupid requests =.=
-` [ Çhanky ] ~* ; 12equiem says:
T,T
-` [ Çhanky ] ~* ; 12equiem says:
evil cake.
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
-.-
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
seriously.
-` [ Çhanky ] ~* ; 12equiem says:
show me
-` [ Çhanky ] ~* ; 12equiem says:
show me!!
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
i'm not so boliao.
-` [ Çhanky ] ~* ; 12equiem says:
><
-` [ Çhanky ] ~* ; 12equiem says:
i space in front then still cannot...
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
okay see right
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
do u see that thing thats under your fingers?
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
the one with all the buttons?
-`Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
which one?
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
there should be a LONG one
-`Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
...as in which button
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
at the centre
-`Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
......
-`Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
you press that one for space.
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
try it!
-`Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
-.-"
-`Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
___________ ___________
___________
-`Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
u cant put a space on the start of ur nick...
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
then explain just how chee did it?
-`Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
but chee can....
-`Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
-.- i dunno!
-`Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
u do la!
-`Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
>.>
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
i cant do it
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
for a very simple reason
- `Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
ur spacebar dosent work?
;[tzern] don't. just don't. please. says:
. . .
- `Çhanky; 12equiem~* says:
mine smtimes also screwy one

2006-10-30T21:25:00.000+08:00

got contender for worst joke with peng already.

_ [Cries] Cutie says:
too bad rooney didnt do a patrick
_ [Cries] Cutie says:
HAHA
;[tzern] HAHA rooney hattrick! says:
=.=
;[tzern] HAHA rooney hattrick! says:
ER

2006-10-30T21:17:00.000+08:00

HAHA I'M LIKE FEELING SUPER HIGH NOW LA

and i have absolutely NO idea why!

although maybe this afternoon's soccer might have helped XD

damn ownage larh pls. we were playing 4 v 8 sec 2s and we owned -.-

and i had like 8 nuts! one damn nice la i faked a backheel that flicked it thru with my foot at the back XD

funfun!

interclass is abt to get frohwned baby.

kk la i'm not that confident haha. 3R attack is shen.

wish us luck!

2006-10-30T00:43:00.000+08:00

fm is bloody random la.

playing against arsenal, i went down 2-1 then ronaldo got injured. so i restarted the game. XD

second time around, rooney got injured at the start after i went 1-0 down. so i restarted the game. again. XD

third time around, i went up 3-0 in the opening 14 minutes and got thierry henry injured (Y)

ended 6-0. wth.

fm is too random alr la pls.

and i proceeded to lose my next match 3-0 to portsmouth. CHAMPION.

haha but i have a 15 point lead over chelsea! 11 more matches to go baby.

2006-10-29T00:27:00.000+08:00

you know, football manager (hereafter referred to as fm) is damn fun.

but also damn pissifying.

why is it that only other teams score 40 yard screamers against me? on a regular basis?

why is it that even when i put no less than 3 players on one striker, that striker is left open FOR THE WHOLE GAME and has 5 1 on 1s!? and no its not because of pace.

why is it that only other strikers can score spectacular solo efforts, but not wayne rooney!?

at least my team is enjoying playing for the club. at the start they hated it. (Y)

zzzzz i getting headache from playing it larh. irritating.

2006-10-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

re: tagboard
i just thought of something weird. since when does hanni come to my blog? T_T

anyway.

i was totally prepared to come back and post an extremely long and probably emo post, but it was not to be.

y'see, PSL camp was supposed to be on the 26th-27th cos mrpaullim said so. since i told my parents that after hearing it during the july briefing, my parents promptly when to plan our family holiday to shanghai the very week before. on thursday however we received (bad) news that the PSL camp would have to be pushed forward to be in time for the orientation or something. WHICH conveniently clashes with my family holiday T_T

after talking to mr kelvinyap abt the situation, he said he knew nothing about it (cos he was new to the camp) and he said he was going to talk with ms sim about it. upon hearing about this yesterday, my father wanted to speak to him. i was like T_T why!! wait until tuesday lah! anw he provided erm compelling reasons so i had to go off and get mryap's number (from patrick).

after trng, i headed home before going to tm to watch movie with my family. at this point my father said to me seriously in the car that the psl camp cannot be changed, that i had to decide whether being a psl and losing $600 or spending quality time with "your father mother and sister". yes i quote. the answer that was expected from me was quite obvious, innit.

but damnit i was damned proud to get chosen to be a psl considering just how stringently they cut ppl off. so i was prepared to skip the holiday and go for the camp. i wasn't given an easy time after saying that (cue - guilt trip) . eventually my father er relented and then told me that if i was to stay at home, i would have to e.g. mop sweep clean boil wash clothes dry clothes etc. playing along, i said yes.

he asked: "promise?"

i said: " yarh okay"

he asked again: "promise ah! everyone heard it?"

then i said: "yes okay!"

(bemused at this point.)

then he started laughing -.-

and said

"i have good news"

"your psl camp is being pushed back again because ours is not the only case"

then i was all like "WTH!? THEN WHAT WAS ALL THAT FOR!?"

"to get you to agree to wash clean mop sweep boil"

WTH.

zzzzzzzzzz i also dunno whether to be happy or pissed off.

2006-10-25T19:51:00.000+08:00

i wanted to blog yesterday, but when i came home i got scolded by my parents so.....

to my parents: i'm sorry T_T

so now thats over with...

yesterday was fun! went to hanni's house after fixing my screwed up com. played soccer and watched them play basketball (yar i very humji cos i can't play basketball for nuts! (= ) then went lanning! haha xiong was quite scared for once la. but we owned their noob asses ^_^ those ppl in the lan shop tt we were playing against were super noisy la, pissed me off. my mouse jammed once and they killed me, and they were like "WOW NICE ONE NICE ONE WALAO DAMN NICE THAT GUY SUX LAH" T_T

then went for dinner with kevin boo at tampines mall. we talked quite alot while eating. actually right, i feel very at home with the taonan ppl still, cos they're one bunch that i can screw around and do anything with. i hope we stay in contact in the future lor. they're seriously great friends.

anw after that we went to look for xiong who had finished his movie. eh xiong got gf leh! at tampines mall food court at the same time as us somemore! xD but dunno whether his cousins talking cock or what la. haha.

btw, TAMPINES MALL PLAYGROUND IS DAMN FUN. WHOO. we stoned their for half an hour and just talked...and watched xiong fall backward down the slide LOL. damn funny la, should have took a video, but my n-gage has no bloody camera! roar.

on a more sombre note:

INTERCLASS THIS YEAR IS BLOODY SCREWED UP.

I MEAN WTH IS THE PROBLEM LA.

FINE I REALIZE THAT SE AND GE MAY BE DOOMED TO HAVE THESE TYPE OF RIVALRY.

BUT CAN WE JUST KEEP IT AS A FRIENDLY GAME NOT!?

THERES NO BLOODY NEED TO RUN AROUND AND START FIGHTS JUST BECAUSE YOU"RE NOT HAPPY WITH STH RIGHT! I MEAN WE HAD THE SAME KIND OF SHIT LAST YEAR AND THE YEAR BEFORE (ahem 1C match) BUT WE NEVER CAUSED THIS TYPE OF TROUBLE RIGHT.

anw excuse my rant. i'm just feeling quite pissed.

i sympathize with chuanyaw la. he was refereeing our match, but was under hell lot of pressure from the se ppl abt a certain controversial penalty in the penalty shootout. in the end after 15 minutes of shouting and almost rioting, we decided to let them and retake the penalty. zzzz. we won anyway, and we're in the semis.

i'll do a roundup of interclass tmr.

2006-10-24T13:07:00.000+08:00

WTH LAH

STUPID ****** VIRUSES HAVE JUST SCREWED MY COMPUTER OVER

WALAO

2006-10-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

haha okay i know you've all been anxiously awaiting the report of what went on in xiong's house.

(who am i kidding)

k first after co i took bus 88 from outside ri for about an hour or so according to stanley's vague instructions. "Aiya so easy just go and sleep then wake up and get off lor!" amazingly, i got off at the right stop! despite the instructions, haha.

i went to get my dinner first, then went to that row of terrace flats. i could only remember that xiong's house was somewhere in the middle. fortunately as i made my way up the road i saw hanni's head bobbing up and down as he walked up the stairs.

while there we were screwing around haha. WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP BILLIARDS! xD

watched hanni play alot of dota games. then watched stanley play oso. kevin boo left damn early la. 11pm leave alr T_T

at 1230 (am hor) we went to play basketball, although i felt quite sian cos i suck at basketball. hah.

then we went back and played a few games of bridge which was fun. but wang that bugger went to sleep >:(

we played somemore billiards (mini table la) then i fell asleep watching hanni and stan fighting over the com at around 5. xiong's deck chair super comfy la! ^_^

after that went home after lunch. bus 88 damn fast to pasir ris! (Y)

then it was back to packing. zz.

i shall post abt interclass tmr.

2006-10-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

my first dota game since thursday just ended. walao.

kay i'm still lazy to post about xiong's house. zz. its quite late (OKAY LA i know some of you sleep at like 3+) and thus my brain is addled and has become temporarily dysfunctional. )=

packpackpackpackpackpackpack.

bb.

2006-10-21T14:10:00.000+08:00

just came back from xiong's house...i'll blog abt it tmr....

for now a whole pile of rubbish on my table awaits my attention. i hate packing my room.

2006-10-19T17:42:00.000+08:00

:)
:))))))))))))))
:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

cts are OVER

houyes! now time to go crazy xD

i hope i dont die for lit though.

yay owned at lan! going xiong's house tmr xD

funfun. wakaka i'm high.

2006-10-18T16:54:00.000+08:00

hah val i'm gonna fail chem too

JUST ONE MORE PAPER LEFT XD

i just had to say that

haha but today alr kena suan. was mugging in library with merrill and slau then chew and kasong came over to suan me. hah cos their papers finished today cos they took geog, while i'm stuck annotating TGG. gah. they quite fun la, going around the library looking for ppl to suan XD

physics was quite killer. bio i actually found it quite ez, but i totally screwed one question up. grrr.

haha okay so just ONE MORE PAPER LEFT. WOOHOO. i'm going to watch naruto again now. =P

2006-10-17T20:48:00.000+08:00

i extremely stubbornly refuse to compromise my rights for the cts, and shall take no heed and continue posting.

shit who am i fooling.

i'm going to fail physics.

and after failing physics, i shall lose what little confidence i had left and promptly fail bio. (Y)

good plan, innit.

the first day of the rest of my life begins tomorrow.

and it shall begin with me failing physics and bio.

ta.

2006-10-16T14:01:00.000+08:00

CTS IS HALF DONE

=D

right. waiting for mum to come home then i shall start maths.

chem and chinese weren't as bad as i expected. hah.

still, not very good either =_+

longg dayy aheaddd

oya wth someone from israel and someone from ghana visited my blog!?

2006-10-15T19:40:00.000+08:00

whoa watched another 8 episodes of naruto today T_T naruto's obnoxious but at the same time you can't help cheering for him XD

my mugging schedule is looking quite okay at the moment. i've finished chem and chinese twice alr, physics moreorless bio finished last week but i need to do again and maths gone through all the concepts will be practising the whole of tomorrow whoa thats one hell of a long sentence. (Y)

i blame cts for making me have no life.

obligatory random nonsense for the day: doesn't really matter by janet jackson rox haha! i may be a little bit lag but heard it on the radio today in the car. the chorus is super catchy and nice la! listening to it on wmp now heh.

hokay i'm going to remug chem chinese and bio. i've noticed i've been ending every post saying i'm going to mug. just how many times do i do it.........? ;)

2006-10-15T02:07:00.000+08:00

damnit naruto is damn addictive!

haha seetow's been spamming lierro too XD

physics nothing much to study, i realized. so tmr morning i shall do maths then do chem and chinese for the rest of the day. if i really have time i'll do bio. (Y)

walao damn late alr. zzzzzz. nite.

2006-10-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

2 of 8.

i've spent the past 4 hours watching naruto XD

erm wait i'm supposed to be studying, innit.

dang.

haha, tami's recent post has got me thinking. i don't think i can say much more la, you can go click on her blog if u want to read it. personally, i just can't believe that we are the very end of gep. hasn't really registered yet. anyway i can't imagine myself anywhere else, honestly. the whole culture is something that i've enjoyed for the past, what, has it already been 6 years? next year is my last; our last. we're going to go out as the very last batch of gep. its quite unfathomable really. its part of what makes me me, if you get my drift. being a geper is something that's shaped me, moulded me into the person that i am today. i wonder how different my life would be if i wasn't a geper. one things for sure; it would have been worse for it. i'll treasure the past few years in gep. let's make our very last year a memorable and smashing one. cheers.

gep is dead. long live gep.

(btw, its not elitist hor.)

on a (happier?) note, 1/4 of the cts is done and over with. heh. honestly, i have no idea how i'll do for both ss and english. its not very reassuring. oh well. this weekend is going to be a helluva busy one. ganbatte =D

2006-10-12T18:32:00.000+08:00

i hereby conclude

that during ct period

i do everything and anything but mug.

case in point:

i have started watching naruto XD

even with cts starting tmr. walao (Y)

i piss myself off.

i shall go prepare ss seq now. heh.

2006-10-11T20:34:00.000+08:00

ONLY ONE FULL DAY LEFT TILL CTS

SO WTH AM I DOING POSTING ON MY BLOG!?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

:))

haha so okay in response to klax, janus lim told us that we must be very familiar with the peace process i.e. what happened since the good friday agreement in 1998. and apparently lesterlim said sth like the seq 'will there ever be an ending to the conflict in northernireland' is going to come out for the ct. sth like that. yup.

and apparently he also said we don't need to study, since we'll fail anyway. right. >_<

haha today soccer during pe owned! (Y)

bb i go mug ss alr.

we be trippin'

2006-10-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

bishan library is a nice place to mug (Y)

spent er like 4+ hours there today. reasonably productive, finished the stupid lit essay that took me 2+ hours (o_O its supposed to be done in 1 1/2 hours) and did ss and chinese. haha i don't think i'll need to go to janus for ss revision. seems quite straightforward fortunately, cos today's the first time i've seen them. last night doesn't count, cos i fell asleep in the middle of the first handout -.-

we spammed the third floor table la. at the table we were sitting at 3/4 koped by ri guys. lol everyone started zaoing at arnd 5+ then left only me and tom, then we packed up at 630 then walked to bus stop. haha we decided to go mug there again tmr if physics doesn't end too late XD

i think i should turn off my com before i start watching south park again. ahh.

i hope we play soccer for pe tmr.

and in an attempt to scare myself into studying more

i shall announce

THAT ONLY TWO FULL DAYS REMAIN UNTIL CTS

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

crap. i did scare myself. NO MORE SLEEP TONIGHT AGAIN

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2006-10-09T19:46:00.000+08:00

PSI HEADS UP

around 100 today!

yay!

haha i'm super weird la XD

still entertaining the notion that school will be canceled because of the haze. heh.

wha today i feel quite good! scored my first goal in months while playing soccer. in the end finished with a brace, 2 out of 4 shots. lol i damn boliao rite, post this type of nonsense. haha!

and before i forget

OMG BIO I GOT 65.5 for CA!!

wahahahahahahaha considering i got 15/35 for my plant test. =D

C'MON LEMME GET A 3.6 for bio!

then there remains a chance that my gpa will actually go up! (Y)

in accordance with the randomness of this post, i shall point out that bishan library is a nice place to mug. reasonably quiet, although seating is quite tough to get. and if i dunno anything, i can ask people that are mugging with me! i'm a convert to outside mugging.

anyway who wants to go bishan library tmr after sch and meeting with januslim? XD

HOI AND PEOPLE STOP TRYING TO KOP MY BIO NOTES GO MAKE YOUR OWN LA!

heh. ^_^

2006-10-08T17:55:00.000+08:00

-nubb- haze makes life more interesting. says:
dat day i damn qiang lah
-nubb- haze makes life more interesting. says:
i got dis cool ship
-nubb- haze makes life more interesting. says:
which is some tank
-nubb- haze makes life more interesting. says:
cannot die de
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
shhhh
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
u qiang?
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
u sux
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
ok end of story
-nubb- haze makes life more interesting. says:
lol
-nubb- haze makes life more interesting. says:
i ownz u lah
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
LOL
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
LOL WHAT A JOKE QIAOER
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
LOLLOLLOL
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH SO AMUSING QIAO ER
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
LOL QIAOER THAT WAS DAMN FUNNY
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
SERIOUSLY
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
OMG ROFL
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
looks like he stil hasnt come 2 terms dat hes some nub
-nubb- haze makes life more interesting. says:
...
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
haha
-nubb- haze makes life more interesting. says:
im too pro lah
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
LOL
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
LOL
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
DAT WAS AN EVEN BETTER JOKE
-nubb- haze makes life more interesting. says:
nubs like u will get owned by me
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
HAHAHAHHAA
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
YOU'VE OUTDONE YOURSELF QIAOER
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
HAHA
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
HAHAHA
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
HAHAHAHHAA
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
LOLOLOLOLOLOL
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; writes:
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
lol
™SuiCiDaL© oh dear; says:
sad larh qiao er

okay i HAD to post this. =D

2006-10-08T17:49:00.000+08:00

my favourite comic now!

haha seriously its damn funny. it'd help if u played the game before though.

and its fun to suan qiaoer XD

maybe next time i'll post our frequent msn suanning sessions.

byebye i need to finish doing all the bio questions

2006-10-07T21:14:00.000+08:00

i wanted to go and eat, but i had to post this msn convo XD

-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
dosent alt F4 close the window...-.-
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
it took u long enough to figure that out =.=
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
er
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
cause whenever i pressed alt F4 my convo wif u closes.
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
DOTS UP TILL NOW U NEVER REALIZED WHAT ALT F4 DOES!?
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
er
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
i kinda knew?
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
then? =.=
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
no wait.
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
u either know
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
or don't know
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
u cant kinda know
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
like then why the hell does it make u invincible!?
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
i'm left speechless
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
...
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
oh.
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
STUPID
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
ARGH
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
i hate sarcasm
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
esp on msn.
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
U CANT TELL SARCASM ON MSN!
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
__________ __________
_________
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
er...issit like some dota thing?
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
no.
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
oh.
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
can't u see concerned at the end of it
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
go search concerned on google
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
er
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
-.-
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
oh.
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
lol adventurequest got a new game!
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
omg
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
dragonfable looks cool(:
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
=.-
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
found concerned yet?
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
ya
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
dat's where i saw the new adventure quest game!
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
xD
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
dots.
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
gj
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
wtf is hasta la freesta!?
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
free?
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
if u havent played hl2, u probably won't get most of the jokes
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
oh
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
i havent
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
i tink its violent
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
my point exactly
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
er
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
=.=
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
point
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
LOL
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
POINT
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
oh oh oh freeman's the guy who gonna get killed!
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
what?
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
O_O

omg jorel. =.-

-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
hl2 is bloody
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
and its like ur neck breaks when u die
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
eh?
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
and er er the camera sux
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
that doesnt mean its bloody =.=
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
WHAT!?
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
ya
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
it keeps going slanted when i die
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
how can the camera
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
in an fps
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
suck!?
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
er
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
cause it just does?

*slaps forehead*

he's outdoing himself.

wait.

;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
u havent seen the crowbar?
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
er
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
no?
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
then?
;[tzern] "Hit 'Alt-F4' to enable god mode!" - Concerned says:
=.=
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
i bet its fugly

and his verdict on hl2

-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
and the weapons are boring
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
no ultima weapon
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
or save the queen
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
all guns one

its an fps damnit.

-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
the sounds horrid too
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
no nobuo uematsu songs
-`Çhanky; *slaps* says:
its just bang bang and boom bom

wah niao.

AGGHH FANBOY AGGHH

2006-10-07T20:41:00.000+08:00

COME ON PSI, GET HIGHER AND HIGHER AND HIGHER AND HIGHER

THEN GET TO AROUND 300 ON FRIDAY

THEN CT WEEK

MOE CANCELS SCHOOL

WHEE

ok that was random.

but srsly, if that happened

and i don't get any respiratory problems

that would rock. XD

*looks out of the window*

theres a chance of that happening yet. i cant see beyond the *forest out of my window. people look like they're walking in a fog =.=

haha i found a great place to mug today.

my condo's study room (Y)

quiet (mostly) and got nice table!

spent arnd 5 hours there today haha.

and in that time i realized all my sciences are gged.

fwalaah.

on a sidenote: why do so many people like to go bishan library to mug? i shall go see for myself.

on another sidenote: i like beatboxing!

2006-10-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

walao trig test im dead. i mugged so much, understand everything, but for some reason screwed up my entire question3. mind simply went totally blank when i saw question 3. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ there goes my nice maths ca. ARGH.

and just kena owned in whats probably my last game until end of cts. YAY WHAT A NICE WAY TO END IT OFF.

the lit parodies were nice. jot's group owned.

haha was screwing around with emo-kid (cant rmb his name) jianying slau and merrill before lit parody performances. lol they're fun to hang around with.

okay im off to go be emo somewhere else. bb.

2006-10-05T20:22:00.000+08:00

i'm in a funk.

headache again, plus a total and complete lack of energy.

walao had gastric/food poisoning today in school, was sweating buckets la. zzz.

was super sleepy during piano also.

and i havent sold any tickets yet =.-

hooray for me.

bb i go mug trigo now.

2006-10-04T21:34:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling really disappointed now.

although it was kinda expected.

our play wasn't really well rehearsed. even during rehearsals we weren't exactly focusing 100%. so perhaps we did deserve not getting in.

but what i'm disappointed with was that we didn't do justice to ourselves lah. i know that if we had spent a little more time, not been so nervous, we would have gotten in. i'm SURE of it. personally i felt our script was strong, that we were in with a good shout of getting in, but our performance itself totally screwed us over. everyone was too nervous, we forgot lines, personally i thought we bombed lah.

[tom23] and weightless and maybe' says:
your group did pretty okay too la, dont worry.

[tom23] and weightless and maybe' says:
as in sincerely, the mistakes werent that obvious to the audience

this made me feel quite alot better though. thanks tom! =D

anyway congrats tom's group and jotham's group for getting into friday's performance. yeah man 3P is gonna rock this house. ftw.

on another note, i can't stand trig. bah.

re congress today was quite funny. i think edmund's gonna post on it. check eddiefoxie.blogspot.com for more details! hahahahaha.

2006-10-03T21:21:00.000+08:00

50th POST zOMG
w00ts

omg la i can't believe that i actually got to my 50th post.

anyway

today i had chem remedial and bio tuition

chem remedial was okay

then i went home with chee

had dinner then had bio tuition with my mum's ex-student

and current jc teacher (Y)

I LEARNT MORE IN THAT TWO HOURS THAN I DID ALL YEAR FROM COURT

so there.

and our lit parody looks quite sad when u compare it to yongster's group, titus' group et al. bah.

2006-10-02T18:43:00.000+08:00

after much meticulous research

i have concluded that i need more sleep

although i plan to stay up late anyway XD

headache's making my head fuzzy.

and i'm trying to haul ass and actually start revising chem.

on a side note, don't assume the world owes you something, cos it sure as hell doesn't.

i really can't stand people who act like that, act so superior, that are such bigots

get a life, please.

haiz perhaps its just a pet peeve of mine.

i'm beginning to become a nocturnal creature.

2006-10-02T16:55:00.000+08:00

i don't think i shall be on blogging hiatus.

considering that at the moment, blogging is what i do during my free time, since i'm not allowed to play games on the com anymore. =.=

today has been a typically horrible day.

our lit parody, as i predicted, screwed up. slau forgot his lines in the middle part, and we skipped almost 1 page worth of lines 50% of lit cct gone. yay.

and as it turns out, i'm one of the nine people in my class who failed chem cct. whats wrong with me la! zzz so now this tues i have to stay back, then come home along with chee for bio tuition. thurs i'm also supposed to stay back, but i've got piano lesson. zz. i rather not lose that $50, thanks very much.

to top things off, i missed my stop while taking 59 (Y)

shit if i'm not careful i'm gonna go emo. damn. must. stay. cheerful.

=.-

2006-10-01T20:00:00.000+08:00

YAY LIT PARODY TMR

OUR GROUP KNS (Y)

cos no one has memorized their scripts yet!

maybe except for slau, cos he wrote most of it.

lol i've got the two most random roles in the thing lah. one is to trip over slau's stick and get poked, another is a psycho psychiatrist (whoo alliteration!)

shitshitshit and up till now we haven't used the lt for rehearsal yet. wtf la diediedie.

haha today was quite -_-

played 2 ownage games today, both over by 30 min. hanni and the a-e-i-owned-u guy. his chen is retardedly gay.

then went to merrill's house to do rehearsal. his house damn nice -_- i want a semi-d oso. :/

his dog is damn smart! knows how to open the sliding door leh! pwwnnzzzzzz0rrr euuu.

im supposed to be studying physics now. which i shall proceed to do. bye.

2006-10-01T11:51:00.000+08:00

RICO Concert
Voices of the Dragon VIII
6/11/06
$10 per ticket while stocks last.
come get from me! XD

2006-10-01T00:25:00.000+08:00

shh i'm not supposed to be here.

i'm supposed to be asleep.

crap i just remembered that my dad may be reading this.

I WASN'T HERE.

XD

2006-09-29T20:41:00.000+08:00

i remember saying around 3 weeks ago that i'd get down to finally doing this quiz

guess that shows how much i procrastinate huh =D

haha got tagged by slau and tiankai. so here goes.

1) put your music player on shuffle
2) press forward for each question
3) use the song title as the answer for ur qsn, even if it doesnt make sense (i don't like the sound of this.)
4) tag 5 other people
5) bold the questions and give comments after your answer

how are you feeling today?
Unbelievable - Craig David

err i don't think thats true. unbelievably what!?

will you get far in life?
Hei Se You Mo - Jay Chou

i don't want to think about this one.

how do your friends see you?
I Offer My Life - Don Moen

i guess that means i'm er self-sacrificing? haha.

will you get married?
Faint - Linkin Park

my chances are faint? -_-

what is your best friend's theme song?
Don't Cha - The Pussycat Dolls

AHH!? does this mean he's either narcissitic or gay? AHHH

what is the story of your life?
Shut Up - Simple Plan

erm i've been too quiet? or its so bad i want others to shutup?

what was primary school like?
Lei Zui - Stefanie Sun

it wasn't anything like that at all!

how can you get ahead in life?
Since U Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson

i guess that means someone has to go....nooo....

what's the best things about your friends?
Wu Xin Shang Hai - Alex To

see they're so nice! they don't hurt others (y)

what is in stall for this weekend?
Revolution - F.I.R.

ehh is this good or bad? better be good hor.

what song describes you?
Life is a Rollercoaster - Ronan Keating

aha. so true. so many ups and downs.

to describe your grandparents?
Don't Treat Me Like A Fool - Blue

0_0

how is your life going?
Zhi Zhan Zhi Shang - Jay Chou

whoo second jay song. er does that mean that i'm being hurt now? or that i'm fighting for ppl! hahahaha.

how does the world see you?
Freak Out - Avril Lavigne

yeah i do freak out sometimes. for people who haven't seen it, it isn't pretty.

will you have a happy life?
Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day

i guess not.

what does your friend really think of you?
Words - Ronan Keating

i talk too much?

do people secretly lust after you?
Don't Wanna Think About You - Simple Plan

okayyy....

how can i make myself happy?
Dang Ni Gu Dan Ni Hui Xiang Qi Shui - Zhang Dong Liang

walao i hate this song. what's it still doing on my mp3!? anw the answer to the question is er that i should find companionship!

what should you do with your life?
When I'm With You - Simple Plan

WAHLAO HOW COME GOT SO MUCH SIMPLE PLAN! okay, so i should spend the rest of my life with you!

will you ever have children?
Journey - Corraine May

its gonna be a long journey?

OKAY ITS OVER. WAHLAO ITS MORE IRRITATING THEN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. AND WHY SO MUCH SIMPLE PLAN?

hahaha and tiankai: only 2 jay songs...:))

2006-09-28T18:10:00.000+08:00

You Have Low Self Esteem 32% of the Time

Generally, you feel pretty darn great about who you are, even when you mess up or fail.
Occasionally, a huge setback will make you question yourself, but you pick yourself up quickly.

How is Your Self Esteem?

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

i tend to change friends quickly? =.=

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

interesting.

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have low extroversion.
You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.
A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.
You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people.

Conscientiousness:

You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.

Agreeableness:

You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:

You have high neuroticism.
It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.
You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.
You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is medium.
You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.
But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.
You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

i like the sea

and as you can see (sea whatever)

im bored. very bored.

and sleepy.

2006-09-28T17:46:00.000+08:00

the past 2 days have been quite enlightening.

for one, i've realized that its almost always going to be awkward when i encounter my ex-teammates. i definitely don't like it, but i know that its unavoidable. if any of you are reading this, i hope that we can stay friends. i feel damn lousy about my medical condition, and i hate it that i had to leave also... c'mon, go win b'div next year. i'll be cheering.

for another, i've realized that seetow is a great great friend, and a great guy to talk to. we talked for almost 3 hours straight on msn on tuesday night, after i read his blog post. he seemed to be quite angry, so i just initiated a convo with him. it was worth it at the end of it all. i really didn't expect such a frank and honest convo, and i'm glad to see that things have worked out, and we've really emerged much better friends from it all. its been ages since i had such a refreshing convo with someone, where we'd all just say everything from the heart and not hide behind meaningless one liners. haha i started off listening to him rant, then ended up with me ranting. alot about stuff that i haven't told another soul before. like how i've really been feeling the last few months. dude, you rock man. i really feel like i can trust you. let's have more of these convos! it was fun

bio is held by a pcb. damnit i'm gonna do well for bio this sem, i swear. i'm gonna prove that even with such a teacher, i can overcome it. prove everyone wrong.

i've been bored, so i decided to do a quiz i saw on seetow's blog!

You Are An ESFP

The Performer

You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.
A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.

You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

What's Your Personality Type?

2006-09-26T20:44:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY

I have a wonderful and massive headache!

dang.

im nodding off at the computer la.

and its only 845!!

HOI.

2006-09-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

zzz today was worse than i thought it would be

which is saying alot.

first was chem cct, which i almost screwed up totally.

next was debates. i hope maas didn't screw my group over for definition or whatever. didn't go as well as i wanted it to.

then got back chinese cct, which SUCKED. 22.5/40. wtf la. zonghe got 6/20

omg la pls. i guess guess all wrong, merrill guess get 18/20

WALAO

life isnt fair.

maths got canceled, which is a bad thing, considering its a free 10 marks and could have brightened up my day. linear law la, how badly can i screw it up?

then had prac, my wrist strength improving gd job!

trying to do my expository essay now, preparing for tomorrow.

i want to slack.

2006-09-24T19:54:00.000+08:00

zzz tmr going to be damn hiong.

got chem cct (BETTER BE OPEN BOOK), maths ta and maybe english debate.

wth.

siao la.

at least linear law is the most no-kick topic out there

while for chem im ggxxed.

english debate i chionging now.

walao. stupid weekend.

i hate mondays.

2006-09-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

harlo, decided to finally set up a friendster account, after months of couldntbebotheredness. add me @ willem_castle@yahoo.com.sg or just tze ern :D

2006-09-23T17:51:00.000+08:00

im in the most f***-ed up mood ive been in a really long time.

people who ive talked to know

all i can say is

stop.

2006-09-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

wha, im blogging for the second time today.

not like many people actually come and read anyway

partly cos i've nothing to do other than sit and vegetate in front of the computer.

philo essay is a screwed up piece of *%*$&# la. i zunzun do until 500 words, then i find out that the new word limit is 800-1000 words.

PLS LAH

so i wasted my entire evening doing the essay. the ignominy of it. ah.

i've been liberated of my duties of finding ppl frm daji for the nov concert committee. whee. but not much time left to the concert, must buckup.

after blogsurfing awhile and reading some people's memories of obs (not just ri), i started thinking of my watch, and our obs camp.

during the camp itself, we were all groan, moan, why so cold, rain so much, etcetc. seriously it was quite miserable la.

BUT it still owned anw (=

MEMORIES OF OBS

most memorable: waking up at 4 am somewhere off the coast on pulau ubin, shivering in my damp pe, and huddling around the campfire as one big group, just enjoying the silence.

most irritating: peng singing almost non-stop throughout the camp the pokemon theme song.

most funny: ajay telling peng "you fall i laugh", then peng proceeding to jump on the spot and falling on his ass. causing the angmohs sitting there to laugh like siao oso. the start of the mooning and bighead nonsense.

most memorable (2): walking during land ex and singing songs together (totally random), and slau showing his pro singing skillz, and peng showing his lack thereof.

most memorable (3): kayaking in the rain, shouting instructions to each other, generally the whole sea ex

most surprising: that all of us got sunburns (and pretty severe ones) even though there was only one hour of sun during sea ex. 0.0

strongest man: DING, for singlehandedly rowing edmund in a 2man kayak, and leading the pack somemore -.-

rubbish talkers: peng, with bentay and seetow coming in close seconds

best leader: WEEHAO

most buaysong: that rg got to stay for so long in Camp One, while we rotted in camp two.

in random order la. anyway brought back fond memories :D obs rox.

2006-09-21T17:56:00.000+08:00

im surprising myself that im still blogging

probably cos i realized that blogging is a great way to relieve

after a hectic day at school

just helps me sort out my thoughts

and make some sense of it all.

had two tests today, i hope i don't fail chinese.

thought today would be a slack day after the tests were over, but noooo, suddenly theres last minute news about philo essay thats due tomorrow. its only last minute cos PENG, our philo rep, has conveniently forgotten to remind us! again. and, he was still laughing as he said he forgot, in his trademark rising scream. its things like this that i really can't stand lah. take some responsibility for once man. i seriously need to take a video of peng when he does that. wait. it would probably corrupt youtube or sth. and i need a camera phone for that, for which an n-gage, unfortunately, does not fit the bill.

the n series looks so inviting and geek happy, don't you think? *heh

*hinthint*

oh yeah and the xbox360 is coming up with a new package, going for only *gasp* $350!

!!!

i've been successfully convinced to splurge my savings on this fabulous deal.

apparently the gaming shops are gonna be stocking it next month, and it comes with a 2gig harddrive. YESSSS

i couldn't care less about the wired controller, cos i just wanna play the games (Y)

so this BETTER BE TRUE.

PLSPLSpls.

listening to: ye de di qi zhang - jay chou (qiaoer's taste sux.)

reading: ultimate spider-man comic

2006-09-20T18:38:00.000+08:00

yay maths cct is over. if im lucky i'll get 27/27, but i dun think my bonus will be correct. so i'll probably get either 25-26. still good larh. so so so so happy cos i think my maths is improving ^_^

sian today damn fun to play soccer la, play for 1 h during pe, then during recess and lunch kop astro some more. the sad thing is i couldnt play! >< stupid flu zzz.

haiz oso just lost a dota game. medu is a freaking tank. screw the spellshield lah. anyway i randomed razor, then end game i was the only lvl 25, had treads, skadi, aegis (with 2 charges), radiance, maelstrom and crystalys. ended the game with 5k gold oso. score erm 17-3 i think. then halfway hanni got damn pissed cos he couldnt farm his aghanim (shock) with ogre, cos he died quite alot and na was a coosturd mana burning him @ every opportunity. then the last 5 minutes damn hiong. i killed balanar and axe, then we were chionging their base. it was 3v3 at that time cos of lag outs. (i nvr kop items hor.) then we chiong their base, knock down base mid tower, all the way until left only ft and 1 tower. then game ended. i was like O_O then i realized that while we were chionging, their creeps killed our base -.-" hanni u nvr leave we would have won!

bb i go mug physics and read the stupid chinese book.

2006-09-19T16:45:00.000+08:00

RE: SUNDAY'S POST

i have nothing to say. really.

turns out

peng actually did charge his camera battery before coming!

FULL some more!

no. 1: then why did he tell us that he only charged for 15 minutes?

i have no idea. maybe bigheaded people think differently from normal people.

no. 2 so WHY did his camera not register any battery.

simple. you probably guessed it already.

he forgot to put the battery (which by the way was in his bag all the time) into the camera

*smacks forehead*

and here, boys and girls, is lesson one on how to make yourself a complete and utter CHAMPION.

i dunno whether to laugh, cry, or whack peng. i'll whack peng anyway.

and today, he threw a chair and a large plastic/cardboard thing at people.

you know, i can take the lame jokes.

and boy are they LAME.

i can take the "i'm so pro, thanksthanks" attitude as well.

i can take his ALWAYS coming up to me saying 'a peice of cake!'

okay maybe i can't. anyway.

what really pisses me off is that he thinks that he's invulnerable.

that we're always wrong damnit.

that he doesn't know when to bloody STOP.

peng, if you're reading this

theres a LIMIT

to what you can do

before going too far.

i think you've crossed the line.

so for your sake, for our ENTIRE CLASS' sake.

THINK

before doing anything.

PLEASE!

damnit.

2006-09-18T21:16:00.000+08:00

didn't go to school today cos i have the flu....and i cant stand having to blow my nose every five minutes. zzz

for the first time, i didn't slack at home! (shock, awe, horror)

i actually MUGGED

which may come as a bigBIG surprise

(considering that i'm a slacker)

i spent 6+ hours on maths

so proud of myself =D

and 1 hour on bio

where i spent half the time cursing *youknowwho* for not teaching

seriously, he can't teach for nuts.

not that he has any, considering they've all been whacked off by tennis racquets!

lalala 3P lameness.

*DISCLAIMER: ANY SIMILARITIES TO ANY PERSON LIVING OR DECEASED IS ENTIRELY UNINTENTIONAL, AND SHOULD NOT BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY. LALALA.*

2006-09-17T16:06:00.000+08:00

what a stupid, retarded, and utterly pointless day it has been.

was supposed to meet at j8 at 1 to go take videos for our chinese web project.

i thought it was 12, so i waited for 1 and a half hours. but nevermind. that's not why im angry.

when we met up (seetow merrill peng and me) i asked who had the video camera.

peng said 'ya i got. but only 15 minutes'

at that point i was like -.- but nevermind, 15 minutes would still be okay.

so we took bus 52 to thomson plaza, and went to look for food.

we went to this place called 'the roti prata place' (how innovative)

and we ate (suprise) roti prata, and took video.

at least,

we tried to take video

and peng turned on his camera

and watched it turn itself off again

and said

'no batt.'

me and merrill exploded in front of him. 'WHAT!?'

then he said (in that matter-of-fact tone)

'i told you i only charge for like 15 minutes before coming what'

WTF!?

right. how responsible is that, really.

'i forgot what!' what a dumb excuse.

CHAMPION, PENG.

so i have wasted 4 hours of my life today. thanks peng. really. sincerely.

2006-09-15T22:41:00.000+08:00

yay today was a slack day. :D im such a slacker.

but it rained so much, so cannot play soccer during lunch. sec2 interclass anyways.

been tagged by tiankai and slau to do the music shuffle quiz haha. i go do tmr, cos my dad wants me off the com soon....

5th game in a row my score more than positive 10! =P

2006-09-11T20:23:00.000+08:00

on the com now after coming back from co and dinner. damn msn is down.

and so i feel bored

and i did this dumb survey

Your EQ is 127

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2006-09-10T13:08:00.000+08:00

@klax: thought abt what you said for a bit, and i find myself agreeing to a certain point. we all have our own tangible ways of dealing with zhihao's death, so perhaps we shouldn't judge. ah well. i admit that it does sound a little fake, seeing that this is the first new act by the new ripb exco. i'll give it time, reserve my opinion abit for the time being.

nth much to say besides this, other than i got into rico exco as section leader. XD thats 2 ex-ruggers being percussion sectional leader in a row. its that a good thing? haha.

2006-09-07T14:07:00.000+08:00

went to his funeral just now. not really in any mood to blog about it now.

**EDIT: I reserve opinion on this venture for the time being.**

Dear Batchmates of 2007 and fellow Rafflesians,

We are very shaken and very sad at Zhi Hao's sudden departure. Most of you would probably be feeling the same way too.While we are all grieving at the loss of a wonderful friend and batchmate and being overwhelmed by feelings such as the brevity of life, unfairness, futility, sorrow, loss and pain, we would like to propose that we recall the wonderful memories of our times with Zhi Hao - in school, in class, in project groups, in CCAs, in org comms , or when we were just hanging around with him in and outside school. Let us capture all these in a book of tributes in loving memory of Yew Zhi Hao. It will be a book of memories, tributes, photos and more, celebrating the life of Zhi Hao. If you wish to contribute to this book, please follow the following guidelines:

- Use an A4 size paper (any texture and colour)

- Draw, print, handwrite, cut, paste (let your creative juices flow)

- Use proper language, ensure that it is a fitting tribute and be sensitive to the feelings of Zhi Hao's family

- Please contribute as many photos of Zhi Hao as possible

We will start collecting and compiling all contributions into a book when school reopens. Paul Tern is presently away on an overseas CIP journey, so in the meantime, please contact Jonathan Lim at jonathanlimes@gmail.com should you need clarifications. Zhi Hao's parents may have lost a beloved son, but let us keep memories of Zhi Hao alive for them through this book. May this book be a source of comfort and strength for them .

Let us do our best for a dear friend,

Paul Tern and Jonathan Lim